Don't take this out of context, it's not meant to be racist in any way, but are your dealers black? How did you meet them and do they live in the projects or ghettos of Newark?
I used to be tight with my main connect, but never would go hang out as friends. He has offered many times to take me out, invite me to his house, go to his vacation house, but in the end you got to remember they are just drug dealers hustling. He would front me, give me freebies when sick, cut me crazy discounts and low prices, etc. The usual shit you would get when you are really close to a dealer. Ever since he got arressted a few times, he's changed and he has an attitude now. Life isn't going good for him anymore so he takes it out on his customers. Not a good thing to do. I really don't deal with him anymore. Shit can change with a dealer over night like that. My backup dealer was always reliable and now he is my main man. His prices are a bit more expensive, but he's always around and a trustworthy guy. Strict, yet fair. Always watching out for me. I would say I am tight with him because I have known him for a while, but no fronts or anything like that like my old dude. Both of these guys are from the projects. But it beats knowing guys like this you can call anytime then actually going into the projects! In the end, they are drug dealers. Might seem cool or whatever, but always remember that.