TooManyTimes
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 12, 2012
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Hi all. I will set the scene:
I have been lurking on here since the late 90s. Never posted. Been dabbling for the same amount of times so hmm 14 years.
Last week I was particularly sad as I received some bad news about a friend, and I had also had some big arguments with my other half. I was feeling pretty low and had been taking a lot of my 5htp to brighten my mood right up to Saturday night, but come sat night I was still feeling low and figured a party would let me blow off some steam as it normally does.
At 22:30 I took one pill, allegedly 100mg+, and at some point in the next few hours I took another. I also drank 2 pints of beer and a 750ml bottle of fortified wine (15%). I might also have had some double rums as well (always possible with me). I don't remember much after coming up until I came down at about 6am. The copious alcohol probably helped with that. I do remember at one point talking to mate on the couch though and had heavy eye wiggles, and every time I had a wiggle I had an audio distortion. My mates said I was absolutely blazing but hilarious at the same time.
From when I woke on Sunday, right through Monday, Tuesday and part of today I have felt like I have really bad flu symptoms. I have felt very detached from the world about me. It has been like I have went straight from the amnesia of the night into the come down into this flu like fever state and because there was no marked separation between each event I have found it difficult to cope with it.
Did I catch the flu and woke into the detached flu fever, or was it an extended psychological part of my come down? Only today (thurs) have i felt normal(ish) again and the seeds of doubt have been sown. I am very physically active, and live a very healthy lifestyle (Saturday nights not withstanding). As I feel this has been one long continuous experience since Saturday night I am reflecting on my pill use and telling myself never again, or as we say in Scotland "aff it". Or is it possible I was just unlucky and my normal Sunday which I would spend eating pizza and chilling was hijacked with the flu and giving me this horrible experience.
As a side note I indicated my general mood and 5htp use right up to the night in case it has any baring.
Hope that makes sense.
I have been lurking on here since the late 90s. Never posted. Been dabbling for the same amount of times so hmm 14 years.
Last week I was particularly sad as I received some bad news about a friend, and I had also had some big arguments with my other half. I was feeling pretty low and had been taking a lot of my 5htp to brighten my mood right up to Saturday night, but come sat night I was still feeling low and figured a party would let me blow off some steam as it normally does.
At 22:30 I took one pill, allegedly 100mg+, and at some point in the next few hours I took another. I also drank 2 pints of beer and a 750ml bottle of fortified wine (15%). I might also have had some double rums as well (always possible with me). I don't remember much after coming up until I came down at about 6am. The copious alcohol probably helped with that. I do remember at one point talking to mate on the couch though and had heavy eye wiggles, and every time I had a wiggle I had an audio distortion. My mates said I was absolutely blazing but hilarious at the same time.
From when I woke on Sunday, right through Monday, Tuesday and part of today I have felt like I have really bad flu symptoms. I have felt very detached from the world about me. It has been like I have went straight from the amnesia of the night into the come down into this flu like fever state and because there was no marked separation between each event I have found it difficult to cope with it.
Did I catch the flu and woke into the detached flu fever, or was it an extended psychological part of my come down? Only today (thurs) have i felt normal(ish) again and the seeds of doubt have been sown. I am very physically active, and live a very healthy lifestyle (Saturday nights not withstanding). As I feel this has been one long continuous experience since Saturday night I am reflecting on my pill use and telling myself never again, or as we say in Scotland "aff it". Or is it possible I was just unlucky and my normal Sunday which I would spend eating pizza and chilling was hijacked with the flu and giving me this horrible experience.
As a side note I indicated my general mood and 5htp use right up to the night in case it has any baring.
Hope that makes sense.
"late" is the understatement of the year right there, but rather late than never without a doubt. Hope you're doing well