It's been a while now since I came to these concepts (via the Aghori Hindu sect if you care) & I've been trying to practise it daily, I've had a few break through experiences with it & have managed to burn out some of my views towards other people etc BUT I seem to fall back. I take 3 steps forward & take 2 back.
To hold a TOTAL view on these things is so hard, I could be there with that "Satori" view upon the world for a moment watching people go by & just be in the moment viewing the world in all it's glory from a dog taking a crap on the street to a new born child making noises, birds flying in the sky etc then somebody will do something stupid, usually a teenager thinking his gangster playing loud music from his phone & that vibe is broken, my "meditation" is smashed inthe most rude fashion & I feel like Kali in her black form (Samhara Kali) I could take heads off & do a dance of Destruction upon that person.
Anyone managed to get over this issue?
How did you go it?
The problem is that you're
trying to practice non-dualism. If you're "practicing" it, then it's an object in the mind, and all objects in awareness are dualistic. The mind itself is dualistic. Trying to go about realization through the mind is incredibly difficult, perhaps impossible. You need to quiet mind entirely. That which we are, is not an object. What we are is the subject that all objects arise within.
You won't be able to see the world as non-dual until you realize the truth of what you are. Pure consciousness is unchanging, expansive, and open to everything. It is
always awake, even when "you" are sleeping. It is never not shining. IT IS YOU. It is the awareness behind everything, that illuminates all of the manifest objects in existence. An analogy is... the light in a room. The light illuminates the objects in the room. The contents of the room may change, but the light is always shining. The light does not need a light to be shined on it to see the light. The light is its own source. This is the Atman, the real self.
Mind may resist thoughts, or have reactions to thoughts, but consciousness doesn't. It is unchanged by the activities of mind, much like how the sky is unchanged by birds, airplanes, clouds, etc.
The "knower" is an aspect of mind that is lit up by consciousness. The knower is a much more limited version of consciousness, because it sees a tiny slice of the world through the instruments available to it: hearing, sight, smell, taste, etc. This is why the knower cannot know the consciousness which illuminates it, which is why "practicing" non-duality is impossible. The mind and the knower can't really know non-duality because they are dual!
You can hold up a mirror to yourself and see your reflection, and the reflection is accurate enough that you can study yourself in the reflection. This is the mind, and this is the knower and knowledge. But the reflection isn't the source, it is a limited fascimile. Similarly, an eye see the world but it cannot see itself. It sees the world of objects but it cannot see the consciousness that is illuminating its sight.
It's so simple that most people overlook it, or they identify it with their personal name. I am Bob, and Bob experiences things. But who is Bob really? Who is the awareness that illuminates this Bob? That is the real you, and it is non-dual.
You don't "experience" the non-dual, you ARE non-dual... that is what core awareness is. You may be happy, sad, living, dying, whatever... the awareness illuminating those experiences is unchanged, non-dual. There is nothing to overcome to see this truth. It's actually easy to see it. It's not knowledge or ignorance, the known or unknown. These are all objects.
It's just consciousness.
