[FONT=.SF UI Text][FONT=.SFUIText-Heavy] Just a little background on me before I ask away. I have an extremely high tolerance to Roxy and I mean of epic proportions. My low days were 300mg and my high days I am to ashamed to even say. I have attempted getting clean once or twice in five years but I simply couldn't do it. A couple weeks ago I ran low while away so I made 20/30mg's last four days. I usually have that many for breakfast figuratively speaking. The point is my WD symptoms weren't there and my cravings were through the roof but I made it without much effort. When I got home I had 120 waiting for me and in a total binge 95 were gone in a matter of days. I felt like a total loser but instead of getting more I decided to finally really give it a try. I tapered the last 25 over the next week. Instead of taking them on a set schedule I waited until my body could not wait anymore. I would get excited thinking that magic blue pill would give me relief 25 times and 25 times it did nothing but make me crave even more. This took alot of willpower and just in case I felt a moment of weakness I put them in a timelock safe always setting the lock to open a bit later. As time increased my cravings grew stronger and stronger but I was able to function normally with the crave being the only WD symptom. By Wednesday last week at 8pm I had waited 18 hours for my last dose and then panic set in. I knew I would now that in 18-20 hours I would be entering WD. Well the mind over matter right. The restlessness started in about two hours. Damn placebo effect. It didn't matter how long I went in between doses days before. Once I knew I was out, it was over. Here's the kicker, I assume that by lowering my response so acutely over a week the WD was manageable. A little bit of restlessness but that's it. I smoked a little bit of bud and took a xan and I fell asleep. Yes I kicked a bit in my sleep but not enough to keep me up. I woke up as usual Thursday at 5am and I felt I was ready to transition onto Sub. I have some left over from my last attempt and the doctors script was 2/16mg per day for a month. I figured since I was feeling so so I would only take 8mg to put the restlessness to bed. That was Thursday morning and I tapered the subs as I did the rox over the next three days. Today is Sunday and I'm 17 hours in without anything and I still feel great. My craving is obviously there but it's not bad and no symptoms whatsoever. So should I hold out and see what happens or should I take a maintenance of 2mg or so. Idk what to do, I feel different, even though im off of everything I'm not anxious, I'M not looking everywhere to see if I can find a single pill which btw if I look hard enough I guarantee I will find more than 1. Will this LAST. I truly hope so because I don't have any bud,xan and I quit smoking last Wednesday. I really don't want to trade one for another. Last bit of weirdness yesterday I found a bottle of 15mg with 30 pills inside that I forgot I had for true emergencies and I quickly ran upstairs and grabbed two full boxes of fenny that I never used and dropped them off at Walgreens. After just getting off by the hairs on my chinny chin chin I decided why reset the clock. I hope I'm really done.[/FONT][/FONT]
[FONT=.SF UI Text][FONT=.SFUIText-Heavy]The only way to beat the beast is to find the beast within
*** I wrote this this morning and forgot to hit send. I'm wide awake. It's been 29 hours since my last sub and the crave was surprisingly not there all the time. I only craved when I remembered that I was trying to get clean. I can't sleep but no WD. I'm gonna stay off as long as my body allows me too. I'm gonna call this Acute Withdrawal Avoidance lol. Now someone else try and let me know if this is just me or a one time gift. I know last time I only made it a few days and that was on 32 mg of sub. That doctor was planning on keeping me on for a very long time. Jerk[/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=.SF UI Text][FONT=.SFUIText-Heavy]The only way to beat the beast is to find the beast within
*** I wrote this this morning and forgot to hit send. I'm wide awake. It's been 29 hours since my last sub and the crave was surprisingly not there all the time. I only craved when I remembered that I was trying to get clean. I can't sleep but no WD. I'm gonna stay off as long as my body allows me too. I'm gonna call this Acute Withdrawal Avoidance lol. Now someone else try and let me know if this is just me or a one time gift. I know last time I only made it a few days and that was on 32 mg of sub. That doctor was planning on keeping me on for a very long time. Jerk[/FONT][/FONT]
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