so lets start this off right. I am a very experienced high dose cubensis mushroom consumer. at first 30-40 wet grams but I knew it could go further.. so naturally I have had five... actually four 80-130 gram wet doses. Just trying to give psychedelic background as it is very important for this story. as for the mushrooms, the 130ish gram experience was actually completely by accident. well, almost. I used to race mountain bikes so i rode about 15 hard miles (1.25 hour approx to a walking trail that was one of my active fields. and dear god what do I find. the most little 2-5 gram cubes I have ever seen. I mean almost 100 in a 50 by 50 foot area. it was december and they were those good small cold ones. so i just went into like a feeding frenzy, like i was bestowed by the gods. I was so amazed I couldn't think straight and ate about 75% of these things until i was getting full. maybe 7-10 minutes. This was a quick forage. Then it hit me. I had a 1.25 hour bike ride back that would have been moderate without 100-150 grams of fresh cubensis. It was so strange.. the 1st third was al good. and the the second third I had to stop a couple times, which I thought was weird. now remember, I have a pretty decent runners high at this point, riding 160bpm for 2 hours... so surprising having to stop the 2nd third, there were virtually no hallucinations... except the oak tree limbs... they were connecting with a shimmering silver light.. it almost looked like pure energy, it was pretty amazing in retrospect to be honest.. at the time, I was focused on getting to the parking lot. body load surprisingly minimal. only about 5-10 minutes off pace to get here. last third, everything changed. Body load was slamming. had to get off and start walking. after 10 minutes or so. literally earth shaking visuals started.. as it was getting hard finding solid ground pushing a bike.. the ground beneath me was moving so much I knew I was in for some serious trouble. fear relatively minimal, still really anticipatory for the experience.
the parking lot was a joke, the cars were just.... melting as the ground beneath them moved them what appeard to be close to one foot in all directions. Wow, fucking wow. so I got home, literally fell face first to the floor when I got home (about t+ 2.25 hours). I then experienced cevs for 3+ hours that I always get on very high dose cubes.. well, a form of it at least. I then understood high dose (70 wet grams+) was the only way to go from now on. i never considered it a +4, or really close. A good +3. But it beat the pants of my 25 or so lsd experiences (up to 4 blotters where 1 was somewhat active and 1 quite fucking active.... jesus.. plain white fuzzy paper blotter circa 2001)
and that brings us to nitrous. now fuck I'm gonna have to comfortable for this one. and it most definitely cannot be put into words well, but I am going to try my best. I have an 80 page notebook halfway filled in the last 6 months trying to figure this out. And I feel like I have come as close as I am going to. I am going to go smoke a cig and I will explain how all this came about. Before I go, I always thought nitrous was a waste. yes it was ok but I seemed super tolerant cmpared to friends. but it seemed right. my pattern never actually changed since 2001 but my understanding has been completely whipped into different form. alright, brb.
so off and on, maybe every month or two, I would be 50 or so whippets. I use a single cart canister... I can get about 5-6 carts in about 1:130 after so much practice. besides, anymore is usually useless, plus if I am in the wrong state of mind, never more than maybe a +2.5 will happen in that 15 second nitrous experience that is just.. well pure unbridled bliss. so I messed with it until 2010. it was late at night, I wasn't on anything (maybe a little weed) and I was in my car all alone about 1am. I pulled the box out, did 3 0r 4 and I felt like I had touched god. This moment really would change the way I see psychdelics and would eventually help me heal and look at my life with much more perspective than before.
last thing before the TR, I don't use anything anymore expect my scripts (gabapentin for rls, xanax 1mg twice a day b/c I had a seizure tapering with klonopin so I just take it until I am prepared for another taper). well..weed, nitrous..... yea I haven't tripped off a phenethlamine or tryptamine in over 3 years.
so, about six months ago I'm feeling down, which is rare. I remembered nitrous and went and bought a new canister and 50 carts. When i did 5, i ran into my closet and just screamed the most primal scream ever and slammed the canister against the ground, knowing i had found "it". A psychedelic relief in a can. luckily the canister didn't break lol. I realized I had some big questions that only nitrous could answer wo I got a notebook, a good pen and 100 carts. I wrote about 11 pages that night. It effects my fine motor coordination, especially up to 45 seconds after finishing. making it quite hard to write obviously which actually is very lucid when re-reading it. nitrous does not affect my gross motor coordination. extremely little, honest if at all. I actually feel more precise when I cut/change directions when I have a revelation and needed to try to run and explain to my wife. This is actually important as it took 1000's of carts over a decade to get this right. as in, being able to assimilate nitrous information is some kind of skill, as it is a bullet of numbers and godliness comes as 100,000 thoughts dressed down to one... in 15 seconds, maybe 5-10, and eventually this space became somewhat able to navigate. or at least report on. and my friends, that is the key. able to write and understand what happened is truly revealing if you can find a way to do it. I dont know if it's just me, but 200mg gabapentin every 45 minutes for 4-5 hours, some good dank, a good tank and the right state of mind. It is the closest and best tool I have. I have not tried dmt, but was not interested until 2010 and it has not found its way into my life, nor have I forced it here. I hope you all find yourselves well. and I will always love this place, our strength, passion, drive and understanding.
-jeah (shubs pre 2005)
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the parking lot was a joke, the cars were just.... melting as the ground beneath them moved them what appeard to be close to one foot in all directions. Wow, fucking wow. so I got home, literally fell face first to the floor when I got home (about t+ 2.25 hours). I then experienced cevs for 3+ hours that I always get on very high dose cubes.. well, a form of it at least. I then understood high dose (70 wet grams+) was the only way to go from now on. i never considered it a +4, or really close. A good +3. But it beat the pants of my 25 or so lsd experiences (up to 4 blotters where 1 was somewhat active and 1 quite fucking active.... jesus.. plain white fuzzy paper blotter circa 2001)
and that brings us to nitrous. now fuck I'm gonna have to comfortable for this one. and it most definitely cannot be put into words well, but I am going to try my best. I have an 80 page notebook halfway filled in the last 6 months trying to figure this out. And I feel like I have come as close as I am going to. I am going to go smoke a cig and I will explain how all this came about. Before I go, I always thought nitrous was a waste. yes it was ok but I seemed super tolerant cmpared to friends. but it seemed right. my pattern never actually changed since 2001 but my understanding has been completely whipped into different form. alright, brb.
so off and on, maybe every month or two, I would be 50 or so whippets. I use a single cart canister... I can get about 5-6 carts in about 1:130 after so much practice. besides, anymore is usually useless, plus if I am in the wrong state of mind, never more than maybe a +2.5 will happen in that 15 second nitrous experience that is just.. well pure unbridled bliss. so I messed with it until 2010. it was late at night, I wasn't on anything (maybe a little weed) and I was in my car all alone about 1am. I pulled the box out, did 3 0r 4 and I felt like I had touched god. This moment really would change the way I see psychdelics and would eventually help me heal and look at my life with much more perspective than before.
last thing before the TR, I don't use anything anymore expect my scripts (gabapentin for rls, xanax 1mg twice a day b/c I had a seizure tapering with klonopin so I just take it until I am prepared for another taper). well..weed, nitrous..... yea I haven't tripped off a phenethlamine or tryptamine in over 3 years.
so, about six months ago I'm feeling down, which is rare. I remembered nitrous and went and bought a new canister and 50 carts. When i did 5, i ran into my closet and just screamed the most primal scream ever and slammed the canister against the ground, knowing i had found "it". A psychedelic relief in a can. luckily the canister didn't break lol. I realized I had some big questions that only nitrous could answer wo I got a notebook, a good pen and 100 carts. I wrote about 11 pages that night. It effects my fine motor coordination, especially up to 45 seconds after finishing. making it quite hard to write obviously which actually is very lucid when re-reading it. nitrous does not affect my gross motor coordination. extremely little, honest if at all. I actually feel more precise when I cut/change directions when I have a revelation and needed to try to run and explain to my wife. This is actually important as it took 1000's of carts over a decade to get this right. as in, being able to assimilate nitrous information is some kind of skill, as it is a bullet of numbers and godliness comes as 100,000 thoughts dressed down to one... in 15 seconds, maybe 5-10, and eventually this space became somewhat able to navigate. or at least report on. and my friends, that is the key. able to write and understand what happened is truly revealing if you can find a way to do it. I dont know if it's just me, but 200mg gabapentin every 45 minutes for 4-5 hours, some good dank, a good tank and the right state of mind. It is the closest and best tool I have. I have not tried dmt, but was not interested until 2010 and it has not found its way into my life, nor have I forced it here. I hope you all find yourselves well. and I will always love this place, our strength, passion, drive and understanding.
-jeah (shubs pre 2005)
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I feel like somehow, this is an evolution of a someone out there for the search and finally found it. responsibly. I haven't used nitrous in a couple months, and I don't plan to anytime soon. I have been needing/wanting to get some cubensis for the last month or so but like much of the southeast, zero rain!!