Day 0 – last 20mg Valium, apx 40mg in system by half-life, 15mg Zop taken
Day 1, intensity 2 – Rebound phase day 1
5am – 5pm
Fine – worked
5pm – 5am
Psychological cravings, Insomnia, took ½ zop, 2h 53min sleep. I hope I don’t suffer further psychological cravings, I found these very difficult
Day 2, intensity 3 – Rebound phase day 2
5am – 5pm
Fine – worked
5pm – 5am
Mind numbing depression, slept unaided, 4h 37min sleep
Day 3, intensity 4 – Rebound phase day 3
5am – 5pm
Fine – worked
5pm – 5am
Fear, Anxiety, regret, Insomnia (eye flashes), took ½ zop, 3h 56 sleep
Day 4, intensity 5 – Rebound phase day 4
5am – 5pm
Fine – worked
5pm – 5am
Disgust - All benzos binned, Anger, Insomnia (eye flashes), some irritability, walked 12000 steps, took ½ zop, 3h 05 sleep
Day 5, intensity 10 – Acute phase day 1
5am – 5pm
Went to work. Increasing Anxiety, irritability, severe mood swings (could burst into tears one minute, laugh the next), lack of concentration, could not sit in office
5pm – 5am
Walked 27000 steps for day, building up with severe anxiety, severe irritability, shaking, disassociation, ticks, Insomnia, sweats, stiffness, palpitations, zero sleep. Really important to get support at this stage, it made a difference – props to everyone who posted on my thread, it REALLY helped.
Day 6, intensity 8 – Acute phase day 2 (1/2 day)
5am – 5pm
Off work. Really holding my shit together, severe Anxiety, irritability (in waves now), sweats, palpitations. Beating self-up on past (causing big depression)
5pm – 5am
Into withdrawal now, diminishing anxiety and irritability (never at same time now), insomnia. Turned a corner, took Pregablin 75mg, Valerian 2 x 375mg, vits, glutamine, got 3h sleep apx. Lying still, eyes closed and meditating for hours on end really helped a lot. Doing stuff at this stage increased anxiety.
Day 7, intensity 6 – Withdrawal phase day 1
5am – 5pm
Off work. Significantly reduced anxiety (mild chest pain), irritability, exercised 3000 steps, much better mood, palps
5pm – 5am
Reduced irritability, head pressure, no anxiety, insomnia. Remaining zops binned! Took Pregablin 75mg, Valerian 2 x 375mg, vits, glutamine, apx 5h sleep
Day 8, intensity 4 – Withdrawal phase day 2
5am – 5pm
Back to work. Low irritability, mild dissassociation, sweaty palms, skin/spine tingles, small palps, minor headache, exercise 5000 steps 1 x 375mg Valerian at work, vits glutamine
5pm – 5am
Anxiety, during early evening, worried about sleeping but had best night to date, starting to "think" much better. Exercised another 5000 steps. Took 75mg pregabalin, 2 x 375mg Valerian. Important not to beat yourself up at this point as easy to get depressed. 6h 32m sleep
Day 9, intensity 2.5 – Withdrawal phase day 3
5am – 5pm
Work fine. Low Anxiety, sweaty palms (reduced). Some head fog, minor spine tingles. Gaining more composure and focus. Upbeat mood. Diarrhea before lunchtime, no stomach cramps though. Mad head pain after lunch!
5pm – 5am
Regret and melancholy, feeling of loss, had to get out, got my steps in but rain didn’t help mood. Bit of a trigger walking in the house as that was when the fun started, but hopefully the CBT will help with that. Didn’t meditate for sleep, slept when tired at normal time and went off no problem. Spine shivers all evening. 75mg pregabalin, 1 x 375mg Valerian, 6h sleep
Day 10, intensity 1 – Withdrawal phase day 4
5am – 5pm
Work fine. Palms damp, minor anxiety. Woke up tired and work crap, so must be getting better. Restricted throat and minor chest pain in afternoon
5pm – 5am
Very slight irritability, spine tingles. Last 75mg pregabalin, 1 x 375mg Valerian, 7h 3m sleep
Day 11, intensity 0 – Fully Recovered
Slept when tired, no pregabs or valerian root, no anxiety depression or mood issues and no agitation/irritability. Just normal boredom!