Foiled Again
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 23, 2017
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Hi I've just hit the gear again after 4 years clean. Heroin is my drug of choice and had taken it on and off (mostly on) from my early 20's to my early 40's. I got clean after a long period on Methadone with a very gradually reducing script.
Everything was going fine until a four or five weeks ago. I gave up smoking cigarettes and whilst experiencing a huge craving I happened to see my old smack dealer. One thing lead to another and now I'm taking gear again on a daily basis. I am still not smoking cigarettes though so there is a plus.
As it stands now I am waiting for an appointment with a doctor when I hope I will be given another methadone script and I can start stopping again. Appointment is in a few days but I am freaking out. Hopefully things will be ok as I haven't been back on it long and I'm not doing a great deal of it (though it is creeping up). Also I am only smoking it. I used to inject in the bad old days but fucked up most of my available veins.
Right now I am trying to be honest about it with my partner. I have told her pretty much everything and she is upset but would rather I was honest.
Really just freaking out and looking for people to share experiences with who know something of what it's like.
Everything was going fine until a four or five weeks ago. I gave up smoking cigarettes and whilst experiencing a huge craving I happened to see my old smack dealer. One thing lead to another and now I'm taking gear again on a daily basis. I am still not smoking cigarettes though so there is a plus.
As it stands now I am waiting for an appointment with a doctor when I hope I will be given another methadone script and I can start stopping again. Appointment is in a few days but I am freaking out. Hopefully things will be ok as I haven't been back on it long and I'm not doing a great deal of it (though it is creeping up). Also I am only smoking it. I used to inject in the bad old days but fucked up most of my available veins.
Right now I am trying to be honest about it with my partner. I have told her pretty much everything and she is upset but would rather I was honest.
Really just freaking out and looking for people to share experiences with who know something of what it's like.