Ok man! It's again approx 29 hours since my last etiz, which was 0.25mg. 12-15 hours ago I dosed 0.25ml diaclazepam (0.2mg) and although that's a very low dose I definitely felt some stimulation and relaxation from the shaky hands. It didn't do much but I felt more vivid and awake than any day as of late. Today again I woke up shaky and it has gotten worse as the hours pass. blood pressure 124/61 pulse 92 (i take several meds for high bp). Very strange moods and behavior and definitely feeling tons of excess catecholamines but I have 0 energy. Lifting my arm to grab something is a tiring task. I'm not dosing any benzos today no matter what. It feels like I've made a lot of progress although I'm completely useless for physical or emotional tasks I still have it together mentally, unlike earlier days of the week where I was losing connection with reality. Etizolam binges were 2-3 weeks at a time for approx 6 months but alcohol was always present... I guess this was a much bigger addiction than I originally thought or said