Lol this fucker really filled 90 300mg capsules. Like bruh, I'm coming off of it, I only need like, 15 100mg. I guess if I ever wanna party or something I'll stagger some but I'm never going back to taking it every day. I mean it literally did nothing, my dose was upped from 600 to 900 earlier this year due to chronic headaches.
I'm pretty much completely off it. I woke up to restless legs but I don't remember taking a nightly kratom dose, and I was out of Valium. Fortunately I got hooked up finally with 60 5mg instead of 30-45, so if I get bad stomach problems (holy fucking shit yesterday was bad) I have a cushion to fall back on. Still think I have some kind of ulcer developed from too much ibuprofen for months and then megadoses of niacin. I only take 500mg now and it does just fine for my tinnitus, I'd been convinced I needed 2-3g of the shit...
Got to Nebraska today and just in time for both to be filled as I got in, went to CVS on the way to my aunt and uncle's where I'm staying for the next 12 days. Stayed in Iowa the first 2 and went to the state fair. Not impressed, I don't like big ass crowds, almost falling out of the back of a swinging ship because the latch was loose. Some things were cool but my stomach was fucked and I'd barely slept. Stayed for 8 hours and still my cousin and uncle were pissed at me not wanting to stay the full 12 hours, thinking "it's just a stomachache" when really something is seriously wrong with my stomach for it to get in these states where it feels like it's being pulverized constantly.
Anyway, Idk if that's directed to my rainman. I don't really use that much, my biggest addiction is THC and I could easily get off the Valium, already experienced 5 days without it and the gabapentin withdrawals were far worse like JackARoe said. I felt rebound anxiety when I stopped my 15mg daily dose that i've been on for awhile but it didn't exactly suck that bad after the first 2 days. Valium itself doesn't do much anyway, I just take it at the moment until my stomach issues can be figured out. I don't take phenibut ever, I just have it from when I was trying it last December but I grew sick of it. Way too potent of a high and the hangover for me was fucking bad. It also worsens my tinnitus, which is no good, and gives this weird acidic taste to my tongue.
The only substances I actively use in a recreational manner would be weed/oil, kratom (6-7g a day, not that bad), DMT when I can get it, kava (non addictive and no withdrawals, you can get itchy dry skin if you take it too often though so I don't). I never really found Valium or Gabapentin addictive, I used to just go a week without taking any Gabapentin while on 600mg and would never get withdrawal, I just wanted to save some up for a stagger if I was going to a party because I don't drink.
In any case, Idk, life's too short, I'm gonna take whatever I feel like taking but I've never touched anything "hard" although I guess phenibut would be the most hardcore high I've felt. Then again, 1.5g is pretty high. At the end of the day all I really care about are THC and DMT, my two favorite substances. All the pharma stuff, that's just there, and the kratom doesn't have to be there but it gives a pleasant start to every day so I just say fuck it and keep taking it. Withdrawals from it suck but only last 2.5 days on average for me until I can sleep without RLS or anything.