tiedyedturtle
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i am currently 18 and have experienced various drugs and combinations inluding
-lsd around 25 times
-ketamine once
-mxe once
-mushrooms about 15 times
-2cb about 10 times
-25i about 15-20 times (strong doses)
-dxm about 15 times
-marijuana/dabs probably over 500 times
-alcahol around 300 times
-adderall about 5 times
-oxy/hydros/perc about 50-60 times
-various benzos about 30 times
-hbws twice
-codiene (syrup/pills) around 5 times
-ritalin was addicted to for about 2 months of constant use
-various synthetic marijuanas was addicted for around 4 months of constant (and i mean constant) use and a year before that ive used it probably 50-100 times
***there is probably more small things i forgot to add but nothing else major i have never done H, Meth, or crack and do not plan to ever try any of them
my current use now is weird because i can go weeks even months going completely sober then i smoke weed or have a drink and go through weeks to sometimes months of constant use of alcahol and cannabis and minor other drugs but mostly those two. Then the comdown after those weeks of use are very depressing until i get to being sober for a few days or weeks then i feel good again.... then go back through the same loop over and over and over again.
Basically after all of this use i feel zoned alot and i guess you can say just distant from reality. i cant relate to "normal" people i dont have anxiety but you would think i do if you are around me because i usually dont have much to say unless its with one person or a small group where i can express myself. I dont know if its the people i am with or me i also feel like there has been alot of negativity coming from others i feel as if they are always trying to bring people down. I have had many very spiritual experiences sober including astral travel and projections meditations and lucid dreams. i have also had experiences with lsd and cannabis along the same lines. I am truly a kind person i am an artist (mostly psychedelic art) but the social aspect of me is just weird from societies perspective atleast. Sometimes i feel like the reason is most people i am around are assholes not specifically to me but in general to others and ect. i dont know if its from all the drugs or what but i really just need advice in life because i feel like i am at a turning point and i just feel lost. I am still young and there are people my age who have done way more drugs then me but the bigger percentage has not nearly done as many as me. A part of me wants to stop drugs forever but another part of me knows that wont happen (or thinks it wont).
Do you guys think i will ever come back to an equilibrium and not feel as spaced out and become more social again? or any tips on how? or just honestly any advice for me in general i know i am still very young and have a big life ahead of me i am creative and a hard worker but life really can get me down sometimes.
i have not tripped in 4 months or done anything but cannabis alcahol and lean in those last months which im glad of because i feel like lsd was making me the most spaced out.
but thats all have a nice day everyone.
(last thing if this is in the wrong forum please let me know and i will copy and paste it to the right one this forum seemed right though)
i am currently 18 and have experienced various drugs and combinations inluding
-lsd around 25 times
-ketamine once
-mxe once
-mushrooms about 15 times
-2cb about 10 times
-25i about 15-20 times (strong doses)
-dxm about 15 times
-marijuana/dabs probably over 500 times
-alcahol around 300 times
-adderall about 5 times
-oxy/hydros/perc about 50-60 times
-various benzos about 30 times
-hbws twice
-codiene (syrup/pills) around 5 times
-ritalin was addicted to for about 2 months of constant use
-various synthetic marijuanas was addicted for around 4 months of constant (and i mean constant) use and a year before that ive used it probably 50-100 times
***there is probably more small things i forgot to add but nothing else major i have never done H, Meth, or crack and do not plan to ever try any of them
my current use now is weird because i can go weeks even months going completely sober then i smoke weed or have a drink and go through weeks to sometimes months of constant use of alcahol and cannabis and minor other drugs but mostly those two. Then the comdown after those weeks of use are very depressing until i get to being sober for a few days or weeks then i feel good again.... then go back through the same loop over and over and over again.
Basically after all of this use i feel zoned alot and i guess you can say just distant from reality. i cant relate to "normal" people i dont have anxiety but you would think i do if you are around me because i usually dont have much to say unless its with one person or a small group where i can express myself. I dont know if its the people i am with or me i also feel like there has been alot of negativity coming from others i feel as if they are always trying to bring people down. I have had many very spiritual experiences sober including astral travel and projections meditations and lucid dreams. i have also had experiences with lsd and cannabis along the same lines. I am truly a kind person i am an artist (mostly psychedelic art) but the social aspect of me is just weird from societies perspective atleast. Sometimes i feel like the reason is most people i am around are assholes not specifically to me but in general to others and ect. i dont know if its from all the drugs or what but i really just need advice in life because i feel like i am at a turning point and i just feel lost. I am still young and there are people my age who have done way more drugs then me but the bigger percentage has not nearly done as many as me. A part of me wants to stop drugs forever but another part of me knows that wont happen (or thinks it wont).
Do you guys think i will ever come back to an equilibrium and not feel as spaced out and become more social again? or any tips on how? or just honestly any advice for me in general i know i am still very young and have a big life ahead of me i am creative and a hard worker but life really can get me down sometimes.
i have not tripped in 4 months or done anything but cannabis alcahol and lean in those last months which im glad of because i feel like lsd was making me the most spaced out.
but thats all have a nice day everyone.
(last thing if this is in the wrong forum please let me know and i will copy and paste it to the right one this forum seemed right though)