I've taken meth orally and intranasally six times now, about once every 3 weeks.
The first time I had somebody letting me try theirs, eyeballing doses into a straw for me, so I don't actually know how much I took. Based on my subsequent experience, I would guess it was around 30-40mg over the course of a few hours.
Although I experienced something akin to a mild "hallucination" (I thought plastic rustling against a box was some creepy bug or rat inside the box and spent a long time working up the nerve to upturn it) and about 10 minutes of dysphoria (when I checked my heart rate and freaked out), I never really had a comedown like I've heard about.
On the contrary, for about 3 days after, I felt better than I have in my entire life. I'm clinically depressed, cripplingly anxious and all that stuff, but for these 3 days I felt like what I imagine most healthy people feel like, if not better. Like 48 hours after dosing I was happily and energetically clearing out boxes and cans than have cluttered my house for years. This "afterglow" which had such a positive impact on my life was what convinced me to get my own supply.
I waited a month and then the second time I did 20mg--15 orally and then the rest as bumps a few hours later. I was happy and productive during the high, but there was no "afterglow" like before, although no real comedown to speak of either.
The third and subsequent times I've taken similar doses, if anything going smaller each time, but the comedowns have gotten progressively worse. Like I'm unable to do anything but sleep and frown for days--the polar opposite of the first time.
So I'm curious as to whether this experience is normal, and if it's possible to attain the afterglow again either by dosing higher or abstaining for a long time (the longest I've gone so far is a month between). Or whether it's a "losing the magic" kinda thing.
The first time I had somebody letting me try theirs, eyeballing doses into a straw for me, so I don't actually know how much I took. Based on my subsequent experience, I would guess it was around 30-40mg over the course of a few hours.
Although I experienced something akin to a mild "hallucination" (I thought plastic rustling against a box was some creepy bug or rat inside the box and spent a long time working up the nerve to upturn it) and about 10 minutes of dysphoria (when I checked my heart rate and freaked out), I never really had a comedown like I've heard about.
On the contrary, for about 3 days after, I felt better than I have in my entire life. I'm clinically depressed, cripplingly anxious and all that stuff, but for these 3 days I felt like what I imagine most healthy people feel like, if not better. Like 48 hours after dosing I was happily and energetically clearing out boxes and cans than have cluttered my house for years. This "afterglow" which had such a positive impact on my life was what convinced me to get my own supply.
I waited a month and then the second time I did 20mg--15 orally and then the rest as bumps a few hours later. I was happy and productive during the high, but there was no "afterglow" like before, although no real comedown to speak of either.
The third and subsequent times I've taken similar doses, if anything going smaller each time, but the comedowns have gotten progressively worse. Like I'm unable to do anything but sleep and frown for days--the polar opposite of the first time.
So I'm curious as to whether this experience is normal, and if it's possible to attain the afterglow again either by dosing higher or abstaining for a long time (the longest I've gone so far is a month between). Or whether it's a "losing the magic" kinda thing.
