Hi all, I wanted to make a crazy long title but just sticking to this.
Im not sure where im going with this but i guess i needed to talk to "someone" about this stuff...
Plainly; i feel very disjointed from the world, from people, from life. When im in my sexual element i feel like im alive.
My life has revolved around sexuality. My parents teach sensuality and ive been intimately close with many many women. I feel like i affect peoples lives at levels i dont understand and i feel like i have this power inside of me.
I have my parents to blame for bringing me into a sexually charged atmosphere but regardless ive done nothing to not follow that path, i feel even like ive surpassed them.
I literally feel the electricy between my skin and another, i feel like i can decrypt the human body by touch and feel. gosh, i read this and i sound nuts, but its the truth!
I try not be big headed, but how many times do people need to tell me the same things until i believe them. How does that old saying go? If one person tells you your a horse ignore them, if lots of people tell you then go get a saddle. Something like that lol, i dont give the saying credit.
So basically i find myself in a situation where i'm completely disjointed from my friends and world around me, i feel like im on the edge of a sexual addiction, but not entirely so. Its more like, i feel like i have the capacity to do more, to fly higher.
I know there are like minded people out there, unfortunately in my path ive been more teacher then taught, although currently the one i taught is superseding me and is teaching me a hell of a lot.
So ive written a lot but no specifics really. I guess i want to be asked, or i want the conversation to develop naturally. There is so much to this subject that i would love to dissect with all of you or just you.
Thanks for any replies, though even i dont know what question your replying to.
take care
Im not sure where im going with this but i guess i needed to talk to "someone" about this stuff...
Plainly; i feel very disjointed from the world, from people, from life. When im in my sexual element i feel like im alive.
My life has revolved around sexuality. My parents teach sensuality and ive been intimately close with many many women. I feel like i affect peoples lives at levels i dont understand and i feel like i have this power inside of me.
I have my parents to blame for bringing me into a sexually charged atmosphere but regardless ive done nothing to not follow that path, i feel even like ive surpassed them.
I literally feel the electricy between my skin and another, i feel like i can decrypt the human body by touch and feel. gosh, i read this and i sound nuts, but its the truth!
I try not be big headed, but how many times do people need to tell me the same things until i believe them. How does that old saying go? If one person tells you your a horse ignore them, if lots of people tell you then go get a saddle. Something like that lol, i dont give the saying credit.
So basically i find myself in a situation where i'm completely disjointed from my friends and world around me, i feel like im on the edge of a sexual addiction, but not entirely so. Its more like, i feel like i have the capacity to do more, to fly higher.
I know there are like minded people out there, unfortunately in my path ive been more teacher then taught, although currently the one i taught is superseding me and is teaching me a hell of a lot.
So ive written a lot but no specifics really. I guess i want to be asked, or i want the conversation to develop naturally. There is so much to this subject that i would love to dissect with all of you or just you.
Thanks for any replies, though even i dont know what question your replying to.
take care