My sexual life

[DocD]

Hi all, I wanted to make a crazy long title but just sticking to this.

Im not sure where im going with this but i guess i needed to talk to "someone" about this stuff...

Plainly; i feel very disjointed from the world, from people, from life. When im in my sexual element i feel like im alive.

My life has revolved around sexuality. My parents teach sensuality and ive been intimately close with many many women. I feel like i affect peoples lives at levels i dont understand and i feel like i have this power inside of me.

I have my parents to blame for bringing me into a sexually charged atmosphere but regardless ive done nothing to not follow that path, i feel even like ive surpassed them.

I literally feel the electricy between my skin and another, i feel like i can decrypt the human body by touch and feel. gosh, i read this and i sound nuts, but its the truth!

I try not be big headed, but how many times do people need to tell me the same things until i believe them. How does that old saying go? If one person tells you your a horse ignore them, if lots of people tell you then go get a saddle. Something like that lol, i dont give the saying credit.

So basically i find myself in a situation where i'm completely disjointed from my friends and world around me, i feel like im on the edge of a sexual addiction, but not entirely so. Its more like, i feel like i have the capacity to do more, to fly higher.

I know there are like minded people out there, unfortunately in my path ive been more teacher then taught, although currently the one i taught is superseding me and is teaching me a hell of a lot.

So ive written a lot but no specifics really. I guess i want to be asked, or i want the conversation to develop naturally. There is so much to this subject that i would love to dissect with all of you or just you.

Thanks for any replies, though even i dont know what question your replying to.

take care

 

[-=SS=-]

Plainly; i feel very disjointed from the world, from people, from life. When im in my sexual element i feel like im alive.

I feel the same way. I find modern life doesn't really offer me the opportunities for outward expression and feeling in the same way being intimate with another person does. Everything is so confined, so plastic, shallow, fake.. but being one on one with another person, naked. That's real. The body is real. The emotions are present. It's all there. The sex for me is secondary to just being naked in that space with someone.

Not sure if that's the angle you're coming from or not.

 

[Erikmen]

A also relate to this. I feel I´m so different and far from the normal world. However, differently than you I´m having very little sexual life. It started with me preferring being in total piece of mind chemically induced than sex, and then I guess I got lost in trying to find my way back.
I have always thought that having a healthy sexual life would trigger good things, like being alive.
IMO you shouldn´t feel bad about it.

 

[WantToBeReborn]

I feel totally disillusioned by the modern world. It is all artificial bullshit. The body and mind connection is real, emotions are real. Since I quit opiates I have become obsessed with porn and thinking about sex and that is probably a bit weird for a woman to admit but hey there it is.

 

[pofacedhoe]

yeah in sex you can lose yourself in a melting ego loss artistry of pleasure and skill. its the one time i feel like i'm not me and thats the best feeling cos it transcends the body and material existence.

there are other ways to feel alive but modern life is fake and very empty