I was prescribed the following medication for anxiety, insomnia and depresión:
Alprazolam 2 mg every 8 hours
Clorazepate 10 mg every 12 hours
Pregabalin 75 mg every 8 hours
Gabapentin 300 mg every 12 hours
Sertraline 100 mg every 12 hours
Clotiapine 40 mg every 24 hours
In addition I have 50 mg clorazepate pills, 10 mg clobazam pills and 30 mg flurazepam capas
What you think about these psychoactives?
I'm not 100% sure what you're asking here - are you asking if they have any recreational value, if we think they're effective for your conditions, what our experiences are of them, or just totally generally our broad thoughts on the drugs themselves? Generally speaking however:
Alprazolam: Good ol' Xanax. I'm not inclined to anxiety, at all, so I don't really find any recreational value in any benzodiazepine, but if I'm feeling really unduly stressed or want to knock myself out then I'd probably choose either Xanax or Temazapam. Short, fast acting, reasonably strong and decent as benzos go. Godsend on a stimulant comedown.
Clorazepate: Another benzo, but one I have no personal experience with.
Pregablin: Some people can get high off it, personally it can make me a little relaxed/sedated for a day or so, then it seems to lose all effect. Useful for heroin withdrawal, though.
Gabapentin: Same as above but milder.
Sertraline: SSRI. Lots of people talk shit about antidepressants, and although due to their side effects I definitely think that people should give a healthy diet and exercise a go first (an entire THIRD of people with depression respond amazingly well to this, which I think is an incredible statistic, and yet so many people would rather pop a pill than get on a treadmill....), I have also seen similar drugs work miracles on depressed people, I have literally seen people totally totally have their life transformed for the better because of drugs like this. However, I have also seen it have no effect on people at all, myself included. Take that as you will.
Clotiapine: Fucking POISON. If you are not severely psychotic, IMMEDIATELY STOP THIS MEDICATION. Fucking HORRIBLE side effects, honestly, these meds turn people into fucking SOULLESS ZOMBIES. They will DRAIN THE LIFE OUT OF YOU. A TERRIBLE TERRIBLE treatment for depression, and possibly the worst med a depressed person could be taking. Immediately flush them, honestly. The side effects can include SUDDEN DEATH (rare but honestly possible, I can google it for you if you're incredulous), PERMANENT MOVEMENT DISORDERS, SEIZURES and they have been found with long term use to shrink the brain's grey matter and permanently lower your IQ. I'm not being hysterical, you can google all of this and find actual studies backing it up. They can be extremely helpful if you're SEVERELY PSYCHOTIC, otherwise ditch it immediately. If you don't believe me just do a quick google search. All these terrible side effects for a drug that makes you sleep excessively, feel no emotion and lose all your spark and zest for life. Immediately stop if you value your health, brain or life.
Clorazepate, Flurazepam, Clobazam: Other benzos I haven't tried.
It's bizarre that you're prescribed 5 different kinds of benzo as well as both pregablin and gabapentin together, to the point where I'm highly doubting you got prescribed any of this, I think you've just somehow "acquired" a stash of prescription meds. If you aren't lying, then you're seriously over-medicated here. Go easy on the benzos, clueless doctors don't seem to have a problem letting their patients get hooked on benzodiazepines, so use them sparingly if you don't want to go through withdrawals that are horrible enough to rival the worst heroin withdrawal sickness, if I were you I'd only use them when you are suffering from really bad insomnia or terrible anxiety, relying on the benzos for either condition will just leave you worse off in the long run. People have described withdrawals from pregablin/gabapentin, but cases of it are rare enough that I don't think you need to be very concerned about it, as more people can stop and start as they wish with no issues than suffer with anything when they cease taking them. I'd continue the Sertraline, the discontinuation syndrome is mild and can be prevented by tapering, and if you are one of the lucky ones that respond well to SSRI therapy then it has the potential to help all three of your psychiatric complaints, but I'd definitely add good diet and exercise to give yourself a fighting chance to come out of your depression. Take the lyrica and gabapentin as prescribed, it's highly unlikely to do you any harm. Go easy on the benzos.
And for God's sake, if there is just ONE thing you take away from my entire post, it's STOP TAKING CLOTIAPINE. IT IS LITERALLY POISON. IT CAN KILL YOU. IT CAN SHRINK YOUR BRAIN. It is fucking HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE STUFF.