That is
excellent that you talk about it. It is SO important for the healing process to talk about it together
You know I read this post yesterday and was affected pretty much all day by it. First off Ghostfreak you seem really kind. And that will take you farther in this world than anything else. The job I have right now is because the other 3 guys were dicks and I am kind. So they moved me over and got rid of them some years back.
I would say yes keeping an eye on the drug intake is important, but more important is being present at times and listening to your wife. And she should listen to you, but I am married so I know how that is. It is not easy and then throw in something as heartbreaking as this. So I say for now take your drugs but do not increase, find a balance. And keep taking walks with your wife and let her know you are present. That silly saying is the truth, 80% of life is just showing up, But we see examples all day of people that are not present and do not "show up". So the walks and talks are key. However what is also key is you taking time for yourself to heal alone. Nature walks, look at birds until insights come and you feel a little better (for 5 minutes but that is the way it works). You need your own healing. And trust your wife will also come out of this as you take care of yourself.
You know this is why when I drive I can not get road rage. The other day someone was going slow on the highway. People were passing her and giving her the finger. When I passed her I noticed she was crying. You never know what people are going through so it pays to be kind all the time.
When you look out at what people go through, I realize why Joseph Campbell called life a Hero's Journey. It is hard, painful and the fun/happy times so to be less as i age. The only good thing about this is it is temporary. I know why we die. I would lose my mind if we lived to 500 years old. But something is built up within us and we grow and I believe that is what we take with us. There is that little bit of light and hope that we are just passing through this for now.
Keep yourself well Ghostfreak. I am touched by the thoughtful responses. And while the drug thing needs to be kept in check, for now being present seems most important and by your post it seems you and your wife are very mature and will come out the other side. (until the next crisis but that is life). It does get tiring. Life can beat you down. It is amazing that we do rebound and find hope.