My ibogaine experience

[cherries27]

I hope I am doing this right lol I am new to making threads...here is my back story. I am 29 I have had an opiate addiction (meaning any and all opiates) and at about age 23 started shooting instead of snorting or PO. Also I switched to methadone maintenance which sucked the life out of me and began smoking crack. I hated hard so bad. Yet I had to smoke it cuz I had no energy from the methadone! I became even more depressed because I couldn't stop either. I thought life was bad just banging but good god add some coke in the mix and life is horrible. I tried the rehab route. They left me on vomit and pissy sheets all 4 days I was there. Checked myself out and shot up 10 min later! My husband found out about ibogaine via research for alternatives and found Joe rogan! About a year later my taxes got direct deposited and the next day I bought my plane ticket and left florida for rosarita mexico. And that's where the story gets more rosy
In preparation for ibogaine I switched from methadone to dilaudid 3 weeks in advance. When I got to Mexico I had exactly 3 days worth of meds so this HAD to work. I put everything into making this trip. Did my blood work and ekg and despite having hep c antibodies as do about 80% of bangers I was all good! I arrived on Saturday night got nestled in and Monday 10 am was my last dose. 60mg of blues. Of course I was in full detox by 7pm which was when they hooked me up to iv and ekg. I laid in bed anticipating my test dose! Most people stop wd with the test dose. Not my ass lol. I had to wait an hr for my first real dose! Still nothin!! Second dose another hr later still nothin!!! Finally she brings my 3rd pill and about 10 30 pm I was finally out of wd and the buzzing began.
Now I welcome the buzzing but at first I was fighting the sound. Scratching in my ear cuz it felt like bees flying in my ears. But it was a warm feeling not a harsh painful feeling. Then something came over my whole body and told to relax. And I even said out loud "ok". I remember my nurse saying "what did you say?" Haha. All of a sudden I was pulled up really high then dropped into this big black space with no light what so ever. Now I know why the voice told me to relax. I was freaking out! I thought u was supposed to relax so he could show me something good!
I screamed for my nurse and asked her to hold my hand like a child. When I felt her hand touch mine I flung it away. I realized the outside world's energy was affecting my trip. We laughed about this the next day. I think it did comfort me to know she was there tho.
I felt like I was in this space forever but then I remember that voice told me to relax maybe I should try it...so I again let go over my ties holding me down and I was flung up into the air so high but i was not scared anymore. I was floating over a world that looked like earth but wasnt. It was just pure peaceful. People had relationships but didn't struggle. They just were and it was great. Then as soon as it began it ended and I was dropped back into the black! But this time was different I looked around relaxed expecting to go back up but was pushed even further below! All of a sudden I was in a wooden canoe of sorts floating through lava. These dry lava rock monsters began attacking my body (the only time I see my body during my trip, it was covered with rock as well). I was fighting them at first and they kept trying to pull off what I thought was my armor. Then the only voice I ever heard during my trip screams "stop fighting we are trying to get the methadone off of you! " So what I thought was my protection was really just a heavy weight and I had to go back to my personal hell for them to be able to remove it! As soon as the last piece was removed from my right arm I was so light that I flew back up over the earth like plant and this time I was so light I could feel the air and see the colors.
My only other visions was my watching 7mm frames float through my view. Pictures of my grandma and grandpa who meant the world to me, a picture of my mother when she was in college (my favorite pic of her), and then a picture of my sister. Then a picture of my kids and husband floated in front of me over and over and his voice came out and said the last thing he said to me before I left "Just come back home to us baby". Then I would fly over that planet and the pictures would replay.
I was abused at an early age and thought that was a big part of my addiction but what I realized and was told telepathically is that it was simply me making bad decisions. I already had the closure to those problems and that I need to mend the issues that I had now. I know that might be depressing to some people to hear it's your fault you are fucked up but I felt relieved!! I could fix myself I can fix the other people that I blamed so this could be repairable!!! I was actually excited. My trip ended much earlier than the other in my clinic. By 5:30 am I was up on my feet and wanted a shower. I wanted to talk to my husband and tell him I was sorry. It was my fault! But it was too early in the morning and he was watching out 3 kids by him so I could get clean. So I impatiently waited till 1130 California time (we live in Florida) to call home. I felt like crap for 3 days. The most intensive restlessness I've ever endured but guess what?! No withdrawls!!! I later found out I could have taken xanax to get thru which I would have had I known!! I didn't sleep at all until the 3rd day. The 3rd day I slept in 2 hr increments maybe got a total of 5 hrs of sleep. It was horrible but so worth it. I truly believe if I hadn't gone through my mental transformation I would have relapsed. I have not used since. I have to be honest I have been picking up the pieces to the puzzle I messed up while on drugs so it has not been cake walk since arriving home. But this time I'm dealing with my problems sober! I haven't been sober since I was 18! The moral of the story is I want to let people know you can get off methadone. But you need go to ibogaine and put in the work, way less work than rehab and more fulfilling. It is so worth it tho!!!!!

 

[The Doc.]

Wow that's so cool man really fascinating. I always wondered how ibogaine helps people get clean cause I've seen videos of people doing it and it looked pretty scary to me haha.
I guess seeing the methadone being taken away is a part that helps keep you from relapsing that makes sense.
How have you been doing since you still clean today?

Oh And and welcome to Bluelight!!

You could post that story in the recovery section or the trip reports section do you want the links so you can post it there in sure others will want to read it.

 

[cherries27]

Just saw the reply. And yea I have been clean. I am actually 10 weeks pregnant with my first drug free pregnancy I'll try to keep updated so people know how things are down the road. I do have a lot of pain issues but haven't used. I just try to live through it. The other night was very rough. Felt like my hips were splitting open and the pain shoots to my left ankle but I took 3 showers that day and was able to sleep it off.

 

[Xorkoth]

I just took a flood dose of ibogaine a week and a half ago to get over my opiate addiction. I'm writing a report about it. For me it was the most incredible experience of my life and I was dreaming even while awake for 3 full days, for the first 12 hours I have no memory whatsoever and then a long series of dreams. I was still dreaming when I closed my eyes for 5 days, and I felt so unbelievably amazing. Did you have some of the total alkaloid extract (TA extract)? I did, along with HCl (about 1150mg of ibogaine HCL equivalent), and the experience was so deep and immersive and physically I felt amazing. It was a super long vision quest adventure that seemed to last for weeks. And now, post-ibogaine, I have a wonderful mindset and a lot of inspiration to change, I've begun working out every morning and eating very well, and even though I now still feel a little shaky, I am so much stronger and I am 100% sure I can do this and be free of opiates forever.

Oh, and they also say that the farther into detox (or even if you have detoxed all the way), the better and more impactful of an experience you'll get. I made myself withdraw for a week before and I was mostly better by the time I took it. Also, that's interesting you mentioned the monsters that were cleaning the methadone out of you, I have also heard from other reports about people acutely addicted at the time experiencing a scrubbing from the ibogaine.

 

[cherries27]

I didn't detox long. Maybe 8 hrs and I had the hcl. There is a kid at the clinic now for his second trip because he took iboga and it didn't help a whole lot so he felt. I have read that a lot. The only reason I say in a medical procedure dealing with addiction things need to be calculated. When dealing with iboga u have no idea exactly how much you have unless you extract it which most people do not. It's like weed really. U could get the same strain but because no two plants are the same their potence differentiates. I personally feel like the hcl works better for patients that are trying to rid wd and that lifestyle because we usually know approximately how much drugs we put in our bodies. Most H addicts are amateur biologists and chemists and didn't know it lol. So if you want to make sure u get the full experience I would take hcl ibogaine...Plus medically supervised! This is nothing like a shot of heroine or even like taking acid! Needs to be done professionally and responsibily. We don't want the countries that allow it to outlaw it because of irresponsible users!! I loved ur story and I love hearing how it helped others! Link ur story here so I can read it.

 

[BishopsBishop]

Fantastic to hear - best of luck in future.

 

[TheCuriousOne]

That sounds so awesome and mind-blowing.
I'm not addicted to opiates or any other drugs but I've always been interested in experiencing the Ibogaine trip.
I've seen people on the Internet while on the drug, and it seemed really fucked up and scary.

I heard tripping on Ibogaine is something in a whole different dimension... like not at all like tripping on classic psychedelics.

 

[Xorkoth]

I still say the TA extract is a really important part. Another Bluelighter has done a flood dose twice, and he took a bunch of TA the first time and only HCl the second time, and he said the second time was nowhere near as complete and good as the first time. I sampled a just HCl starter dose and when I added the TA it became SO much more immersive and comfortable.