I am 26 years old and have been with my boyfriend for 3 years. In january of this year he told me that he had been doing meth for 5 months ( I had no idea) and that he was ready to seek professional help. He then was in a facility for a week and released with a prescription for an antidepressant (Remeron) that he took daily. He was much better. He was actively seeking employment and got a great job. At the beginning of march, he ran out of his prescription and never refilled it. Shortly there after he quit his job (that he only had for a week) and said he was tired of trying to be this perfect member of society that everyone else was pushing him to be. He then said he was going to start refinishing furniture for a living. He then quickly acquired ALOT of furniture projects in my basement. He worked on them from sunup til sundown, but didnt seem to be finishing any of the projects.
In our relationship, I felt as if he was becoming more and more distant and sometimes he didnt make sense in conversation. For instance, one night i got on top of him and was loving on him and trying to have sex with him. In the middle of us kissing, he turn his head and looked away from me and didnt look back. I said hello is something wrong. He did answer, so I got off of him and said hello again. He then turned, looked at me and said "are there cameras in here??? I said why would there be cameras? He said maybe someone is fearful of your safety.... umm what?? This is not normal behavior for him.
We had planned this trip to Orlando to a family wedding. March 23 was Thursday and that's when we were supposed to leave. He asked me if we could leave on Friday instead so he could finish a furniture project and get paid so we would have more money. Fine we can leave Friday. So Thursday I was out most of the day getting things in order for us to leave at 5am. I came home to find him in the backyard digging holes with his hands and thats what he did all day that day instead of preparing for our trip. I said what are you doing why are you digging holes? He replied and I quote "well Hannah had these sticks the other day and it reminded me of something I saw in my text messages about some routes".....WHAT!?! There is no typo there that is word for word what he said to me.
I had to go to Florida by myself. 16 hours in the car by myself to think about what was going on. I get home on sunday and my dad tells me that that day when he got home he found my boyfriend in a 5ft deep hole that he was digging. My dad asked him why he was digging that hole and my boyfriend replied to find his freedom....
I then told him I needed space and he said he would go stay at his mothers house. When he was leaving he said he was going to spend the night in the woods at this national forest park where we go sometimes. I said alright and let him leave.
The next morning his friend calls me and tell me that he saw him in the park last night completely naked and soaking wet. He had apparently jumped in the creek (its not that warm outside and it was dark). His friend also told me he was hollering and not making much sense. When I asked him about it he said he was just out there dealing with his demons. He says he feels crazy and that hes not on drugs that he wishes he was on a drug that he could blame this on and it would be less embarrassing. SOMEONE HELP ME! I am so confused and a little scared and would like to know what is causing this could it be the prolonged drug use or the antidepressant? or both. and is he gonna come back to me maybe or is this permanent?
In our relationship, I felt as if he was becoming more and more distant and sometimes he didnt make sense in conversation. For instance, one night i got on top of him and was loving on him and trying to have sex with him. In the middle of us kissing, he turn his head and looked away from me and didnt look back. I said hello is something wrong. He did answer, so I got off of him and said hello again. He then turned, looked at me and said "are there cameras in here??? I said why would there be cameras? He said maybe someone is fearful of your safety.... umm what?? This is not normal behavior for him.
We had planned this trip to Orlando to a family wedding. March 23 was Thursday and that's when we were supposed to leave. He asked me if we could leave on Friday instead so he could finish a furniture project and get paid so we would have more money. Fine we can leave Friday. So Thursday I was out most of the day getting things in order for us to leave at 5am. I came home to find him in the backyard digging holes with his hands and thats what he did all day that day instead of preparing for our trip. I said what are you doing why are you digging holes? He replied and I quote "well Hannah had these sticks the other day and it reminded me of something I saw in my text messages about some routes".....WHAT!?! There is no typo there that is word for word what he said to me.
I had to go to Florida by myself. 16 hours in the car by myself to think about what was going on. I get home on sunday and my dad tells me that that day when he got home he found my boyfriend in a 5ft deep hole that he was digging. My dad asked him why he was digging that hole and my boyfriend replied to find his freedom....
I then told him I needed space and he said he would go stay at his mothers house. When he was leaving he said he was going to spend the night in the woods at this national forest park where we go sometimes. I said alright and let him leave.
The next morning his friend calls me and tell me that he saw him in the park last night completely naked and soaking wet. He had apparently jumped in the creek (its not that warm outside and it was dark). His friend also told me he was hollering and not making much sense. When I asked him about it he said he was just out there dealing with his demons. He says he feels crazy and that hes not on drugs that he wishes he was on a drug that he could blame this on and it would be less embarrassing. SOMEONE HELP ME! I am so confused and a little scared and would like to know what is causing this could it be the prolonged drug use or the antidepressant? or both. and is he gonna come back to me maybe or is this permanent?
