A little less than three weeks ago, the woman I was completely head over heels in love with and that had quickly become my best friend died far too young, at the age of only 19.
She was a truly wonderful human being that allowed me to experience true happiness in the intense connection we had built together. What we had was very special as it's not often that I feel so strongly about someone and to feel as comfortable and safe in trusting another person is something I've so rarely had in my life, but undoubtedly had with her. Even though our time together was brief and abruptly cut short, she made a great impact on my life that will remain with me forever.
I just wanted to post my final message to her as a way to gain some closure.
To my love Alexis,
I had just been on the phone with you; you said you'd call back that night after work. When you didn't answer my texts telling you that I miss you and how I wished you were here to share the dinner I had made, I thought you were just busy and would call me later as you had promised. I find myself checking my phone, as if I'll finally receive a text from you and everything will be as it was before. A week later and it's still not real to me.
I'll never forget the first time I kissed you, or the smile on your face after I finally dragged you out to dinner on Valentine's day, how stunning you looked in your black dress as we walked along the river in Tempe the night before I left to come home, and the way I felt when you told me you loved me. I'll miss you so very much, but it's not goodbye when you'll always be with me in those memories. Nothing can ever take those moments away from me.
My only hope is that I made it clear to you how special it was for me to have met someone as intelligent and beautiful as you are, that I could be so happy just spending time with you, with whom I could talk for hours about anything and everything, that you not only listened to me go off on tangents, but would enjoy these conversations, always having something to say, no matter the topic, and that in you I had someone I could share my dreams, as well as confide my deepest fears and traumas. None of this was ever lost on me and I cannot overstate how much it all meant. I wouldn't trade our time together for anything and I'd give anything just to have one more minute with you.
Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt. I love you Alexis and I always will. So it goes.
Forever yours,
Alex
Thank you to any of you that took the time to read this and gain a glimpse of the amazing person that she was and will always remain in my heart. I miss this beautiful young woman so much. I hope all of you out there will, if you haven't already, find someone that makes you feel like you are wanted, needed, and loved in the way that I felt with her. This feeling of finding a place where I truly belong and feel at home is what I've searched for my entire life and have unfortunately so rarely found. I just hope that one day I can find someone else that is even half the woman that Alexis is. She was perfection to me.
She was a truly wonderful human being that allowed me to experience true happiness in the intense connection we had built together. What we had was very special as it's not often that I feel so strongly about someone and to feel as comfortable and safe in trusting another person is something I've so rarely had in my life, but undoubtedly had with her. Even though our time together was brief and abruptly cut short, she made a great impact on my life that will remain with me forever.
I just wanted to post my final message to her as a way to gain some closure.
To my love Alexis,
I had just been on the phone with you; you said you'd call back that night after work. When you didn't answer my texts telling you that I miss you and how I wished you were here to share the dinner I had made, I thought you were just busy and would call me later as you had promised. I find myself checking my phone, as if I'll finally receive a text from you and everything will be as it was before. A week later and it's still not real to me.
I'll never forget the first time I kissed you, or the smile on your face after I finally dragged you out to dinner on Valentine's day, how stunning you looked in your black dress as we walked along the river in Tempe the night before I left to come home, and the way I felt when you told me you loved me. I'll miss you so very much, but it's not goodbye when you'll always be with me in those memories. Nothing can ever take those moments away from me.
My only hope is that I made it clear to you how special it was for me to have met someone as intelligent and beautiful as you are, that I could be so happy just spending time with you, with whom I could talk for hours about anything and everything, that you not only listened to me go off on tangents, but would enjoy these conversations, always having something to say, no matter the topic, and that in you I had someone I could share my dreams, as well as confide my deepest fears and traumas. None of this was ever lost on me and I cannot overstate how much it all meant. I wouldn't trade our time together for anything and I'd give anything just to have one more minute with you.
Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt. I love you Alexis and I always will. So it goes.
Forever yours,
Alex
Thank you to any of you that took the time to read this and gain a glimpse of the amazing person that she was and will always remain in my heart. I miss this beautiful young woman so much. I hope all of you out there will, if you haven't already, find someone that makes you feel like you are wanted, needed, and loved in the way that I felt with her. This feeling of finding a place where I truly belong and feel at home is what I've searched for my entire life and have unfortunately so rarely found. I just hope that one day I can find someone else that is even half the woman that Alexis is. She was perfection to me.
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