Donjeroski82
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About two years ago i had tried molly for the first time n my boy told me he wouldnt recomend it to me cuz i never popped pills before this molly (it was the powder form of it) and i took as the molly water. I had seen my friend the night before trip out on it and he sd that he felt like he had a perminant smile on his face. I had maybe a little less then hlf of the molly in the water n didnt no if i was high or if i was just imagining i was but i thaught that this was a great drug.... then my other boy came thru while i was at my best friends stepmoms house n he asked if we wanted to smoke. All three of us took a ride in his car to his house where he sniffed sum bcuz his experiance with coke. He had brought out a bottle of bacardi n i took a few shots n then we smoked in his car, it was still cold out n it was raining and we were by an airport bcuz thats were his stepmom lived so i was a long way from home. We were smoking while my boy asked my bstfrnd how he was soppose to feel then i started to get very worried bcuz ihad school the nxt day (highschool) and i didnt want to get into trouble... n i had known that is was freezing rain so i might b stuck out there not b able to make school the nxt day... then i started to trip out... my hrt beat sky rocketed n i heard my pulse in my ears n i basiclly had a very bad panic attack for the first time in my life. I didnt no at the time wat was happening ot elese i might still b smoking weed as a stress reliever...but as this was going on i thaught my heart was going to explode in my chest, n my guys were trying to calm me down. I had gone outside in the freezing rain with juzt a t shirt tryimg to calm myself down. I eventually went home and thaught i might die.in my sleep n was extremly exhausted from erlier, i have suffured from bad anxiety n ever since n have become extremely paranoid about my heath like my blood presure or my heartbeat or my headaches n even become worried that i might become epalectick and have a sezuire. I have been able to get passed the panic attacks n havnt had one in since the first year i had one. Now i just drink but sumtimes when i no there is someone i no who has medical knowlege i will take a few puffs of weed tell them exactly wat u just read to keep myself from having another panic attack while with my friends, i just drink now and seem to really enjoy myself when im drunk or tipsy... i plan on enlisting into service but not sure if the doctors found everything that lets me no im physically ok to endure bootcamp. I did go to the hospital bcuz i waa getting chest pains that i guess were being caused by anxiety, i still get the chest pains til this day n even developed psoriasis now after the incident and i had even taken a stress test that mesaured the amount of stress my body could take but i never told them about the molly i took bcuz i was only 17 at the time. The doc sd my heart was ok n i was.fine to join i just needed to lose sum weight but im still paranoid about my having a heart attack n dying in bootcamp, my parents til this day dont no about the inccident and i am 19 now... i deff miss smoking bcuz it was a very good stress releiver for me n dont no if i b able to smoke again if i cant get into the military. I would apprrciate reasuring comments letting me now im ok n its all just in my head thnx guys
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