I went fishing with a friend last night, I drank a 4% alcohol content beer over an hour. I actually got a little rush in my head for like 10 minutes from it. I was surprised, and nervous for the rest of the night in case it would throw me into withdrawls, but it's been 12 hours since then and nothing, so I'm glad to know I can handle a drink here or there. I feel like I lost all appetite for hard liquor now, I wouldn't mind being able to enjoy a beer or a glass of wine on the weekends.
I've started running alot too (4-5 days a week, I'm hoping I can finally get to a half marathon for next year) , and applying to grad school, so that's been taking a ton of my focus. Still dealing with the emotions from the breakup pretty hard, but I'm been visiting the Relationship thread on Bluelight and that's been helping too. Just trying to live as best I can each day I'm blessed with.
I'm hoping for the rest of the summer I can teach yoga at a studio and my local library. I originally thought I was going to have a summer romance, but now I think I want to fall back in love with who I am, and not jump into a relationship just to put the other person first and put myself second again. 5.5 years with my boyfriend really changed me, and I think the next chapter of my life will be all about me, and my goals and dreams. That's really where my problem all started, always putting myself last, so I just dulled the pain of feeling left behind and forgotten.
Thankyou guys for sticking with me. I hope to help anyone else out there struggling with alcohol.
Thanks SImco! I wouldn't have been able to do it without finding the advice, experience and support from this site.
R13, thats great to hear! My doc had mentioned in the begining it would make me tired and sleepy when I first started taking the pills, but my anxeity feels the same right now, and I had my first panic attack on June 10th, I don't think I've ever had a panic attack before. I'm actually not a fan of being on medication so young (i'm a 26 year old female.) so I'm hoping through exercise and good eating I can lower my BP and pulse naturally so I can wean off, but my mom is on Metropolol too for the same reasons, so i maybe just be stick with it for life
Toothpaste, I probably won't go the Pheonix house, not unless I spiral again, cause then I know my problem runs deeper than just a temporary shitty relationship breakup. My friend had gone for the 60 day treatment for Pheonix and he said it was better than he expected, but hes also "No pain, no gain." type. Pheonix house is hiring staff actually, and I laughed to my friend maybe I'd apply, and he basically locked me in my room to say hell no I'm not working there, hahahahaha.