Some years ago, after a Mushroom intense and important trip, i found my fybromialgia and my addiction to Oxy GONE, along with other chronic problems of different kinds! The craving for tobacco was very reduced, but the (most physical aspect of the) Miracle has been that my chronic pain and the addiction to pk's vanished into nothing. I have been so dumb, or so SCARED OF RESIDUAL INNER EMPTINESS, that i overused my medication / DOC anyway. I rememeber clearly, i went to the doctor the very day after the Mystical Experience, even if i found myself OUTRIGHT CLEAN i wanted to get my prescription for safety reasons, which per se might have been a safety factor, but i snorted a line instead than taking it has prescribed, i had the beautiful effects of an opioid naive individual, without any side effect, and i could have stopped there, but hey no, i continued snorting / popping, and this f*ck up resulted in the waste of a Miracle. The saddest thing is that my ex gf and i we've been de facto undervalueing the Miracle we've received. We tripped toghether and had an experience that words can't describe. Not only me i received a Miracle on my chronic pain and addiction and other things, but also she has been miraculed on some of her also relevant and old time issues. And i can assure you that karma hit us, for our mix of naivety and selfishness. Or maybe, karma used to hit us not only because we haven't allowed the Gift of the Mushroom to spread itself along our Daily Lives, but also because we acted selfish, or childish on other aspects of our daily / couple experience, in the period after having received it. Indeed, other aspects of our Lives could have been directly / undirectly healed by the Mushroom Miracle. And Vibrations / Afterglow could have co - healed, had we had a more mature and smart behaviour. I'm pretty sure that i could have dropped my tobacco use to minimum levels or quit. To this day, the fact that i personally wasn't able to protect and respect such an Enormous Gift, and that we as a couple and as individuals haven't let it expand and guide us beyond a short period, is one of my biggest regrests in Life. Because it's obviously not just about "a waste of a good trip". I (we) wasted a Life Changing Experience. I hope to God / Goddess that i will be given another chance. I hope the same for my ex gf. But, if this happens, TOTAL MATURITY AND A HIGER LEVEL OF RESPECT have to be seriously proved and cherished and nourished daily - with or without Sacraments / Drugs. May my experience be a warning to others that may receive a Miracle. Don't let it be ruined by fear or stupidity. I was afraid that quitting my pk's all of a sudden (and almost quitting cigarettes) could have affected some deep sufferings that should have needed some more Sacred Trips (and therapy) in order to be transformed and released. So, no, it wasn't outright selfishness. But i could have had the RIGHT amount of Oxy, and a MINIMUM amount of cigarettes, to start off a new chapter in Life. It's still painful, to me, talking about this missed opportunity, as it hasn't been the only one in my Life. And it affected the way things gone for me to this day. Hope that at least, as above said, it can be useful as a warning to others to choose Love over fear.