washingtonbound
Bluelighter
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- Aug 19, 2013
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Last night I was lying in bed thinking to myself: I really miss getting high everyday. Although it's not like you get that high after habitually smoking for several months, it still really helped keep the edge off. I had a psychotic reaction to weed for some reason about three years ago and it hasn't really been the same since then. I smoked after that without having psychosis, but I don't seem to get the same "comfortable" high.
When I used to smoke everyday it would make me much less judgmental/contemptuous in my thought patterns and I could deal with my obsessive thoughts better. Now that I am completely sober my mind is restless, can hardly sleep, and have intrusive thoughts daily. I wish I were lit every day to combat my symptoms. To me, sobriety is a garbage experience and I am only following that regimen right now because I am currently living with my mother, who is not at all comfortable with me smoking. I don't really see any reason not to stay high 24/7 just like many people I hung around when I lived Seattle. There are no real ill physical effects from smoking weed, especially vaping.
Anyone else generally feel like trash when they don't have a good buzz on, or are sober for undesired reasons?
When I used to smoke everyday it would make me much less judgmental/contemptuous in my thought patterns and I could deal with my obsessive thoughts better. Now that I am completely sober my mind is restless, can hardly sleep, and have intrusive thoughts daily. I wish I were lit every day to combat my symptoms. To me, sobriety is a garbage experience and I am only following that regimen right now because I am currently living with my mother, who is not at all comfortable with me smoking. I don't really see any reason not to stay high 24/7 just like many people I hung around when I lived Seattle. There are no real ill physical effects from smoking weed, especially vaping.
Anyone else generally feel like trash when they don't have a good buzz on, or are sober for undesired reasons?