Been on Mirtazapine for around 5 months now. At first it was helping a lot, the only side effect I got was fucked up dreams and sedation while on it (the usual side effects) but no increased appetite at all. Only on 15mg.
I felt like it was helping, as I became more generally insightful and positive about life. However i'd also had a very positive Ketamine trip a few days before this, so maybe it was the Ketamine producing anti-depressant effects. Either way, neither work anymore. Mirtazapine has left me void of panic attacks and psychosis, and I haven't experienced a break down since I started taking it. But I don't care about anything now. I do not feel love towards my partner, I do not feel empathy, I do not feel happy at all nor sad. I just sit here and do nothing. It has helped my anxiety a bit and it has helped my breakdowns, but it's done nothing but worsen the depression. I don't know what to do, should I up the dose or get off it? Because it's clearly doing something if I feel void of positive emotions now. I can't enjoy anything - i've always had this problem, but Mirtazapine has worsened it considerably. Should I get off Mirtazapine? SSRIs also made me void of emotion.
Without Anti-depressants, I have breakdowns, my emotions are unpredictable and extremely intense. With them I have no emotion at all. I don't know what to do, Anhedonia is killing me... and I've been coping worse without weed because i'm so bored all the time. I can't enjoy anything, hobbies, masturbation, sex, love, games, music, socializing.... what the fuck am I supposed to do with my life
I felt like it was helping, as I became more generally insightful and positive about life. However i'd also had a very positive Ketamine trip a few days before this, so maybe it was the Ketamine producing anti-depressant effects. Either way, neither work anymore. Mirtazapine has left me void of panic attacks and psychosis, and I haven't experienced a break down since I started taking it. But I don't care about anything now. I do not feel love towards my partner, I do not feel empathy, I do not feel happy at all nor sad. I just sit here and do nothing. It has helped my anxiety a bit and it has helped my breakdowns, but it's done nothing but worsen the depression. I don't know what to do, should I up the dose or get off it? Because it's clearly doing something if I feel void of positive emotions now. I can't enjoy anything - i've always had this problem, but Mirtazapine has worsened it considerably. Should I get off Mirtazapine? SSRIs also made me void of emotion.
Without Anti-depressants, I have breakdowns, my emotions are unpredictable and extremely intense. With them I have no emotion at all. I don't know what to do, Anhedonia is killing me... and I've been coping worse without weed because i'm so bored all the time. I can't enjoy anything, hobbies, masturbation, sex, love, games, music, socializing.... what the fuck am I supposed to do with my life