Psychedalienation
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Alright so I have bad insomnia that I mostly attribute to ADHD. My mind doesn't fucking turn off when I close my eyes, it actually normally gets worse. "You just moved your finger, why are you thinking about moving your finger, why are you thinking about thinking, why can't I shut up, okay I'm going to try shutting up... train. why train? now I'm seeing trains, boats, a show I watched earlier, fuck my life I'm so uncomfortable, I hate my brain, SLEEP SLEEP" ETC.
So my psych prescribed me Trazodone (antidepressant) and it knocks me out decently but in the morning, I'm a fucking zombie and feel like shit. I'm insanely groggy, grumpy, clumsy, etc.
So I scheduled an appt. with my psych in 10 days from now, but my mother had a phone call with her while I was sleeping and apparently she prescribed me Mirtazapine.
Doing research on Mirtazapine, I have found it causes extreme "munchies", crazy vivid dreams, and is mainly used as an anti-depressant for MDD.
My psych has prescribed me Bupropion (Welbutrin), Atomoxetine (Strattera), Guanfacine (Intuniv), and Trazodone. ALL OF THESE HAVE BEEN UNSUCCESSFUL AND COME WITH TERRIBLE SIDE EFFECTS THAT I HATE.
I don't fucking understand how hard it is to prescribe Clonodine or a benzo or a simple sleep only aid that comes without these side effects. She seems to be obsessed with prescribing NRI's and antidepressants as sleep aids.
The only good thing she has prescribed me was Methylphenidate but I ended up abusing it and my parents canceled the script (this was 2+ years ago).
Now, I have been to an outpatient rehab facility for alcoholism through Kaiser Permanente about a year ago which is the insurance corp my psych works for.
I turned 18 on January 15th, 2017. So when I was in rehab, I was 17.
What the fuck do I have to say to her to get something with either a somewhat recreational value or just a sleep aid that ISN'T a fucking antidepressant and comes without annoying side effects?
Are these signs of her prescribing shit drugs because of me going to rehab? Is she just lazy and prescribing things she can over the phone?
And before you hungry ass people who look for the haze of people who enjoy recreation in pharms, I am NOT only looking for recreation. I'd do just fine with a sleep aid that worked and had no recreation potential but worked for what I needed it to. I would, however, not have a problem with receiving a benzodiazepine or something with that potential.
Should I just keep saying no to all this bullshit until she prescribes me something decent or just flat out says I'm fucked, or do I just accept Trazodone and deal with the mornings. I don't have access to coffee (don't ask why just accept it).
Yes I have tried melatonin, and now also have Doxylamine Hcl which I'm going to try as well.
Oh and before you tell me to not go in with a negative mindset, I'm going to give mirtazapine a fair shot. I'm trying it tonight for the first time at 7.5mg and going in with an open mind. It's just that from what I've researched, there are annoying side effects and people get fat.
So my psych prescribed me Trazodone (antidepressant) and it knocks me out decently but in the morning, I'm a fucking zombie and feel like shit. I'm insanely groggy, grumpy, clumsy, etc.
So I scheduled an appt. with my psych in 10 days from now, but my mother had a phone call with her while I was sleeping and apparently she prescribed me Mirtazapine.
Doing research on Mirtazapine, I have found it causes extreme "munchies", crazy vivid dreams, and is mainly used as an anti-depressant for MDD.
My psych has prescribed me Bupropion (Welbutrin), Atomoxetine (Strattera), Guanfacine (Intuniv), and Trazodone. ALL OF THESE HAVE BEEN UNSUCCESSFUL AND COME WITH TERRIBLE SIDE EFFECTS THAT I HATE.
I don't fucking understand how hard it is to prescribe Clonodine or a benzo or a simple sleep only aid that comes without these side effects. She seems to be obsessed with prescribing NRI's and antidepressants as sleep aids.
The only good thing she has prescribed me was Methylphenidate but I ended up abusing it and my parents canceled the script (this was 2+ years ago).
Now, I have been to an outpatient rehab facility for alcoholism through Kaiser Permanente about a year ago which is the insurance corp my psych works for.
I turned 18 on January 15th, 2017. So when I was in rehab, I was 17.
What the fuck do I have to say to her to get something with either a somewhat recreational value or just a sleep aid that ISN'T a fucking antidepressant and comes without annoying side effects?
Are these signs of her prescribing shit drugs because of me going to rehab? Is she just lazy and prescribing things she can over the phone?
And before you hungry ass people who look for the haze of people who enjoy recreation in pharms, I am NOT only looking for recreation. I'd do just fine with a sleep aid that worked and had no recreation potential but worked for what I needed it to. I would, however, not have a problem with receiving a benzodiazepine or something with that potential.
Should I just keep saying no to all this bullshit until she prescribes me something decent or just flat out says I'm fucked, or do I just accept Trazodone and deal with the mornings. I don't have access to coffee (don't ask why just accept it).
Yes I have tried melatonin, and now also have Doxylamine Hcl which I'm going to try as well.
Oh and before you tell me to not go in with a negative mindset, I'm going to give mirtazapine a fair shot. I'm trying it tonight for the first time at 7.5mg and going in with an open mind. It's just that from what I've researched, there are annoying side effects and people get fat.
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