(This is a bit long but please bear with me.) I recently started using ice in order to deal with some side effects I have coming off of Prozac which made my depression more severe and I was adviced to discontinue it. Now I know that self medicating isn't good especially with major depression and now a possible re-evaluation and rediagnosis of bipolar depression instead. However after getting off Prozac I noticed I was having severe mood swings and was manic which was pretty hectic but not horrible. Actually over the last week my manic episode subsided and I found myself actually in a very depressed state to the point where It is hard to even get out of bed or even cook. A friend of mine happened to have some shards while hanging out and suggested I try it to see if it would lift me out of it so I wouldn't feel so down. Anyway I did a line through insufflation and I felt like I had my energy back to be able to get out of bed and do things, I actually was progressive. Anyway after that I looked into it and found a lot of information on this drug and decided it is not something I want to use regularly or plan to use long term because I don't want to become dependent or addicted to it. My friend gave me a very small amount, about enough for small 3-4 lines because I asked for some in case I found myself severely depressed because my depression has always had a history of suicidal thoughts and self harm and wanted to avoid that. Over the last week I had a 2 day binge which afterwards I took a couple days off of it and just slept, took time to eat, and get myself revitalized since I noticed that when I used it I couldn't sleep at all. Yesterday I was feeling very low and decided to do a couple of bumps ended up doing 2-3 fingertip bumps and got enough energy to get through the day without the insomnia, slept well but woke up again in a bad state. After taking some time to wait it out and see if I felt better after a shower and a run i didn't so I decided to start with a small line not sure how it's measured but it wasn't a big amount, I felt the same uplifted energy but no euphoria as other people state, which is fine, I don't really that I just want to be able to get things done and not be couch locked due to my mood. Long story short that one line worked for a bit then I felt back down a bit and did another half of a small line and waited it out while adding just a bit into my coffee to see if it lasts longer. My first question is this: how long does addiction set in with methamphetamine? Like I said I have never done this drug prior to this week and honestly after I get my appointment out of the way this week I plan on not using it anymore. When I stopped taking it those few days I did not feel cravings for it just very tired the next day and my body felt like it still wasn't rested. But my appetite came back and I was fine. I just need to know if using it this often and again tomorrow since I have enough for another small line tomorrow will lead me to get addicted that fast. Also I noticed that my manic episodes seem to return at 2 days into using this and it's not to bad I just get crazy ideas and have extra energy at night and have to do them, like the last time before I stopped using it my mania returned and I TPd a public restroom in the middle of the night and was acting like it was the funniest thing in the world and felt great being carefree. Which wasn't to bad because I missed that feeling but after that I stopped the next day because I didn't want it to get severe and become a mental break. Which leads to this question: does anyone have bipolar disorder and use meth and if so have you noticed mania develop after several days of use? I also take Klonopin 1mg daily because I am dependent on that and have generalized anxiety for years, is that possibly why when I use meth I don't get like how others seem to act? I am more alert and focused while awake but do not get to the point where I am pacing, grinding my teeth,picking at myself, or experiencing twitches like I have seen a few others explain. I know that with my condition I shouldn't be using other substances to self medicate but it's at the point where if I don't when I am really down I could get suicidal and would rather use a bit of meth to keep me distracted than go down that road. I do not have or know suppliers except my friend who uses and he understood that this is the only time I'll ever use this stuff and will not keep supplying me so please don't tell me how bad it is, I know the harms and already know that after the amount I have left is used up I will not be doing this drug again, like I said it's only to get me through because of my side effects until I see my therapist and psychologist. I am just looking for information on how to avoid dependency and the accurate dosing and time to take between
So I know how to use it as safely as possible.
Bonus question: from my research I have read that speed seems to make people horny but for me it actually kills my erection which is fine because I'm not really interested in sex with everything going on but i am curious if this is normal or not? I can be turned on but an errection will be neigh impossible while the stuff is in my system.
So I know how to use it as safely as possible.
Bonus question: from my research I have read that speed seems to make people horny but for me it actually kills my erection which is fine because I'm not really interested in sex with everything going on but i am curious if this is normal or not? I can be turned on but an errection will be neigh impossible while the stuff is in my system.