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NeedHelp44
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Hey all, long long time lurker but I rarely post, and used to post on my old username which I can no longer log in on.
To give a little backround and history about myself... I have been using illicit substances daily (whether marijuana or heroin) for 99% of my days since the age of 13 and I am now a month shy of 27. Over the past 10 years, those daily DOCs have been what we would call hard drugs, ie everything but weed. Over the last 7-8 years I Have been in and out of active opiate addiction with the last 6 years it being Heroin (IV for the last 4 of those years) Within those last 7-8 years I have had 2 stints of complete sobriety, 1 lasting just shy of 2 years and the most recent 1 year and a month. I began using again 5 months ago going straight to IV Heroin and methamphetamine.
Now thanks for bearing with me if you lasted this long. Now either late Jan. or early Feb. I stopped using all hard drugs, did a quick suboxone taper of about a week and was completely clean from all substances for roughly ten days. I am now using again and have been (if I counted the past days correctly) for the past ~25 days. (Gosh it doesn't seem that long but we know how that goes) I started slow using a 0.2 once every couple days, then a 0.2 a day, and now for the last ~15 days I've been using 0.5-0.7g each day. BEFORE this past 15 days I had been completely clean for 5 days straight (no suboxone) (This is BTH by the way, I live on the West Coast, I have good quality connects, one very high quality so it is not rubbish tar I'm IVing here either.)
Those of you still with me, I need to quit the H like right this second. I have about 18mg of Suboxone total. 15 or so 350mg Somas, a bottle full of 300mg Gabapentin and a bottle of 0.1mg Clonidine. I have access to marijuana but I can not smoke because I have a new job starting soon (at a correctional facility) and I am still waiting for my urine to not pop for THC (its been just shy of a month and I am still + for THC). Now, my best thinking (because I am a bad dopefiend) is to use IV Methamphetamine for the first day or two or three to fend off the pain of the Opiate Withdrawal, while still allowing me to please that fiend inside me with some good IV narcotics, and supplement after with Gabapentin / Clonidine / Soma.
My questions for you guys is... Is this a horrible plan? I feel as if I stop the H ( I have not been using meth regularly) and go straight to the subs, I'm going to pick up on day 1 or 2 because the shitty mental depression and physical pain, therefore switching to using the crystal will help stop me from picking up the dope.
Last question... Am I just being a huge baby here? I have never been able to handle opiate withdrawal well, and I know this. Also after im completely free of the opiates and the acute physical dependance I plan on stopping all drugs and returning to AA / NA as I know how good my life is sober and I know it is possible.
Thank all, and I look forward to hearing from ya'll.
To give a little backround and history about myself... I have been using illicit substances daily (whether marijuana or heroin) for 99% of my days since the age of 13 and I am now a month shy of 27. Over the past 10 years, those daily DOCs have been what we would call hard drugs, ie everything but weed. Over the last 7-8 years I Have been in and out of active opiate addiction with the last 6 years it being Heroin (IV for the last 4 of those years) Within those last 7-8 years I have had 2 stints of complete sobriety, 1 lasting just shy of 2 years and the most recent 1 year and a month. I began using again 5 months ago going straight to IV Heroin and methamphetamine.
Now thanks for bearing with me if you lasted this long. Now either late Jan. or early Feb. I stopped using all hard drugs, did a quick suboxone taper of about a week and was completely clean from all substances for roughly ten days. I am now using again and have been (if I counted the past days correctly) for the past ~25 days. (Gosh it doesn't seem that long but we know how that goes) I started slow using a 0.2 once every couple days, then a 0.2 a day, and now for the last ~15 days I've been using 0.5-0.7g each day. BEFORE this past 15 days I had been completely clean for 5 days straight (no suboxone) (This is BTH by the way, I live on the West Coast, I have good quality connects, one very high quality so it is not rubbish tar I'm IVing here either.)
Those of you still with me, I need to quit the H like right this second. I have about 18mg of Suboxone total. 15 or so 350mg Somas, a bottle full of 300mg Gabapentin and a bottle of 0.1mg Clonidine. I have access to marijuana but I can not smoke because I have a new job starting soon (at a correctional facility) and I am still waiting for my urine to not pop for THC (its been just shy of a month and I am still + for THC). Now, my best thinking (because I am a bad dopefiend) is to use IV Methamphetamine for the first day or two or three to fend off the pain of the Opiate Withdrawal, while still allowing me to please that fiend inside me with some good IV narcotics, and supplement after with Gabapentin / Clonidine / Soma.
My questions for you guys is... Is this a horrible plan? I feel as if I stop the H ( I have not been using meth regularly) and go straight to the subs, I'm going to pick up on day 1 or 2 because the shitty mental depression and physical pain, therefore switching to using the crystal will help stop me from picking up the dope.
Last question... Am I just being a huge baby here? I have never been able to handle opiate withdrawal well, and I know this. Also after im completely free of the opiates and the acute physical dependance I plan on stopping all drugs and returning to AA / NA as I know how good my life is sober and I know it is possible.
Thank all, and I look forward to hearing from ya'll.