TracyTracy
Greenlighter
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- Sep 26, 2012
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I have been using meth most of my adult life. I am 42 and I am always trying to stay clean but relapse every 3 months or so. The shame and guilt over ride everything when I relapse. So I sometimes barely have a good high because emotionally I am so upset at the fact I am using again. I try to stop and three days of sleep I start again. Twice I did this in the past two weeks and this lady time I did some strong meth because I got a completely different reaction that scared me. I felt immensely depressed unloved alone scared. Negative all over me and my neck started hurting and headaches that wouldn’t go away. My blood sugars stayed high ( I am a diabetic ) and I was so stuck and uncomfierable. I finally fell asleep for a couple hours but woke up not feeling that much better. Used some in morning so I could work that day but again put me in a complete depressed funk and the pain in my neck is unbearable. I know I need to stop using but I have to get through next two days somehow before I can crash. Any advice about what I can do to help my pains I am stuck with ? Supplements? Anything ? Any observations about what was happening to me would be good too. Should I take a benzo maybe ? Thanks everyone !
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