RestoredByzantineEmpire
Bluelighter
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- Aug 15, 2019
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I've been a regular user of methamphetamine for about 3 years, along with occasional psychedelic and dissociative use sprinkled in now and again. But I often have a very peculiar effect from meth that not many people around me talk about, but it's clear as day. During a speed binge, usually when I'm sitting up by myself at 4am or so, I start having these deep thoughts and realizations about the passage of time and how limited our lives really are, like in 6 million years some atoms from my body will be part of a comet kinda shit. But it's like, Whoa, almost psychedelic like, without the visuals and outside-looking-in "alien" feel to it, of course. With speed, it's more accompanied by sadness, so to say. Like thinking "I dont wanna lose my consciousness forever", and although it can be somewhat saddening, I honestly feel that it is part of a broader perspective that methamphetamine contributed to. Anyways, anyone else out there have similar moments while speeding?