starry_eyedx
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- Aug 24, 2013
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My methadone clinic is ridiculous, I really feel like they could give less than two shits about my wellbeing and staying clean. I'm about to go on vacation for 8 days and they refuse to give me bottles to take with me. They want to try and find a clinic in Cancun for me to go to everyday... I don't know what to do. I have no mode of transportation when I get there and it's not like I'm going with my family who knows about my addiction. I'm going with my boyfriends whole family, and he's the only one who knows about me. I'm only bringing a limited amount of money that I've saved up from working too.
I only need one weeks worth of methadone, I'm currently on 125mg daily. I went on a cruise and lost my suboxone (before I was in treatment) and withdrew through all 8 days, and this was when I was only doing like 2 bags of dope a day. I haven't tested clean in the clinic because I havent reached my stable dose yet, and they know this and keep telling me this yet they still wont help me. I've been clean for almost two weeks now, with only one slip because they refused to medicate me when I was 3 minutes late. I need to leave the country and not be around any dealers or drugs, this would help me tremendously with quitting for good. I already feel 100x better now that I've been sober for the first time in two years, but the cravings are still there and it would take me two seconds to go out and buy. This vacation is also for my 20th birthday as well as my and my boyfriends 2 year anniversary. I need this more than anything, to get away from everything. I entered treatment cause my dad passed away from a brain aneurysm and the last thing he ever heard about me and found out was that I was a drug addict. I'm 20 years old as of a couple days ago, and it's been a ridiculous hard year.
Another problem is my insurance doesn't cover drug programs and what not, only alcohol treatment. I don't mind paying for a weeks work of methadone out of pocket. I really don't want to have to switch over to suboxone for a week and lose the months of progress I've had at this clinic, not to mention it's that much more expensive than methadone. I really have no idea what to do and time is ticking.
Can anyone please give me advice one what to do?!
I don't want to have to go down there and desperately search for h. I want this vacation to be completely sober and withdrawal free so I can FINALLY stay clean for good.
Thanks in advanced for anything helpful.
I only need one weeks worth of methadone, I'm currently on 125mg daily. I went on a cruise and lost my suboxone (before I was in treatment) and withdrew through all 8 days, and this was when I was only doing like 2 bags of dope a day. I haven't tested clean in the clinic because I havent reached my stable dose yet, and they know this and keep telling me this yet they still wont help me. I've been clean for almost two weeks now, with only one slip because they refused to medicate me when I was 3 minutes late. I need to leave the country and not be around any dealers or drugs, this would help me tremendously with quitting for good. I already feel 100x better now that I've been sober for the first time in two years, but the cravings are still there and it would take me two seconds to go out and buy. This vacation is also for my 20th birthday as well as my and my boyfriends 2 year anniversary. I need this more than anything, to get away from everything. I entered treatment cause my dad passed away from a brain aneurysm and the last thing he ever heard about me and found out was that I was a drug addict. I'm 20 years old as of a couple days ago, and it's been a ridiculous hard year.
Another problem is my insurance doesn't cover drug programs and what not, only alcohol treatment. I don't mind paying for a weeks work of methadone out of pocket. I really don't want to have to switch over to suboxone for a week and lose the months of progress I've had at this clinic, not to mention it's that much more expensive than methadone. I really have no idea what to do and time is ticking.
Can anyone please give me advice one what to do?!
I don't want to have to go down there and desperately search for h. I want this vacation to be completely sober and withdrawal free so I can FINALLY stay clean for good.
Thanks in advanced for anything helpful.