blackmetalstoner
Bluelighter
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- Dec 16, 2013
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So my basic question is this, am I experiencing meth withdraw. I had been "trying" meth for about 8 days. The time quickly flew away as I was caught up chasing the dragon. I decided it would be best to get off the drug before it consumed me, like it has so many other people I know. Since getting off the drugs I've been acting like a bi polar 16 year old girl. I've been very moody, agressive with those around me, fatigued, unable to stay focused(I have ADD, but my problems were highly manageable before using and disappeared, so I felt, while high on shit), highly depressed more so than before and the craving to smoke dope is fucking insane. I've been off now for 5 days. Since then my most notable moments have included; punch a whole in my wall, something I've never done before, telling my girlfriend of 5 years that we weren't going to work out because I was just a phase in her life followed by intense crying, feeling like said girlfriend does not really care about me, and telling my mother to fuck off and that I was going to hang myself from the ceiling fan. I've felt completely out of control when I think about these situations in hind sight, but then I'll repeat them such as the event with my girlfriend. We argued about the same idea that she didn't love me 4 times. All of which after I felt ashamed that I would say that to someone that's done so much for me. I think about meth constantly. Everything from how much I miss the taste to how I could be a functional person on it. If this is meth withdraw how long will these out bursts and INTENCE depressed feelings last? Also how long will cravings continue idk how long I can withstand, Im weak with my impulse control and find it very easy to slip back into other habits. Also, is there a possibility I could have cause permanent damage to my body with this 8 day bender.
I was smoking about a gram to 2 grams of crystal meth a day in this time.
I was smoking about a gram to 2 grams of crystal meth a day in this time.