crazy nate
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Hey bl'rs thanks for sharing info.
So I was on heroin for many years and went through all the worst stuff. Dealing, jail, life threatening situations, accidental overdose's, being homeless, suicidal thoughts, intentionall overdose's all the great things that come from being an addict. But I made it out. In 2011,I moved to a farm in the middle of nowhere and got myself clean. I haven't used heroin since. But I'm still a damaged human. I drink too much, I smoke opium every summer until my garden dries up. I eat shroomz in the fall usually a lot, probably too much, I smoke tons of weed and hash. And occasionally I get my hands on some morphine, oxy, and Percocet. But that shit is crazy expensive! And I sell weed in Oregon so I'm usually broke. Sooooo. The last couple of months I've started using crystal. Never been into stims much other than hallucinagens. I have always been an anxious person to begin with. But meth is dirt cheap and like I said I'm perpetually broke. Anyway I did more than usual Thursday night. I usually only do like 20 to 50mgs but I was in a bad mood, didn't even have money for some beers so I got into my stash of magic crystals. I was smoking allot of hash that day. And I think that's why, I wasn't feeling it at first. So I just kept redosing. When I had already done 75 mgs I was like fuckit and did another 25mgs. And then it kicked in. I was hallucinating like crazy, hearing voices, and everything looked like a cartoon, kinda animated. It was awesome. I've never been that wired before. I really enjoyed it but last night I was getting pretty tired and I just wasn't coming down. So I traded some weed for some morphine. I fixed up 60 mgs and I IM'd that. And I was feeling great for the first two hours or so. Then I started to feel shakey. I have anxiety attacks some times, so I know what that feels like. This was way worse than my usual. It was like having delirium tremors when I'm withdrawing from alcohol. I felt light headed like I was gonna faint.
I was afraid I was gonna have a seizure. Then my heart started to feel like it had stopped for a few seconds. And then boom it would start back up, but way to fast. It kept doing that all night then I started feeling nauseated and threw up. So I was shaking, sweating, and puking, with vertigo. That's when I was like fuck this and I took 3mgs of Xanax and laid down till I passed out about 3am. I woke up around 10 this morning did some more morphine and feel fine now. I'm wondering if it's maybe like a bad combo. Or if it is just me and something I personally should stay away from. If its not the worst idea in the world. I might try it again at a lower dose. Cause before it went bad it was pretty great. Amazing euphoria, I felt energetic, but relaxed at the same time. Kinda like a speed ball but smoother maybe. Back in the day speed balls where my jam. I hope I didn't do this wrong and I'm sorry if there are any grammatical errors. Thanks for the info, any help would be appreciated. PS I'm still hallucinating a little, shadows and bugs and such.
So I was on heroin for many years and went through all the worst stuff. Dealing, jail, life threatening situations, accidental overdose's, being homeless, suicidal thoughts, intentionall overdose's all the great things that come from being an addict. But I made it out. In 2011,I moved to a farm in the middle of nowhere and got myself clean. I haven't used heroin since. But I'm still a damaged human. I drink too much, I smoke opium every summer until my garden dries up. I eat shroomz in the fall usually a lot, probably too much, I smoke tons of weed and hash. And occasionally I get my hands on some morphine, oxy, and Percocet. But that shit is crazy expensive! And I sell weed in Oregon so I'm usually broke. Sooooo. The last couple of months I've started using crystal. Never been into stims much other than hallucinagens. I have always been an anxious person to begin with. But meth is dirt cheap and like I said I'm perpetually broke. Anyway I did more than usual Thursday night. I usually only do like 20 to 50mgs but I was in a bad mood, didn't even have money for some beers so I got into my stash of magic crystals. I was smoking allot of hash that day. And I think that's why, I wasn't feeling it at first. So I just kept redosing. When I had already done 75 mgs I was like fuckit and did another 25mgs. And then it kicked in. I was hallucinating like crazy, hearing voices, and everything looked like a cartoon, kinda animated. It was awesome. I've never been that wired before. I really enjoyed it but last night I was getting pretty tired and I just wasn't coming down. So I traded some weed for some morphine. I fixed up 60 mgs and I IM'd that. And I was feeling great for the first two hours or so. Then I started to feel shakey. I have anxiety attacks some times, so I know what that feels like. This was way worse than my usual. It was like having delirium tremors when I'm withdrawing from alcohol. I felt light headed like I was gonna faint.
I was afraid I was gonna have a seizure. Then my heart started to feel like it had stopped for a few seconds. And then boom it would start back up, but way to fast. It kept doing that all night then I started feeling nauseated and threw up. So I was shaking, sweating, and puking, with vertigo. That's when I was like fuck this and I took 3mgs of Xanax and laid down till I passed out about 3am. I woke up around 10 this morning did some more morphine and feel fine now. I'm wondering if it's maybe like a bad combo. Or if it is just me and something I personally should stay away from. If its not the worst idea in the world. I might try it again at a lower dose. Cause before it went bad it was pretty great. Amazing euphoria, I felt energetic, but relaxed at the same time. Kinda like a speed ball but smoother maybe. Back in the day speed balls where my jam. I hope I didn't do this wrong and I'm sorry if there are any grammatical errors. Thanks for the info, any help would be appreciated. PS I'm still hallucinating a little, shadows and bugs and such.