Misskitt
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 31, 2020
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- 105
I first started IV’ing meth when I was 14. About 17 years ago. I could take it or leave it. Throughout the rest of my teenage years I had a shot a few times a year and just not think about it too much. When I was 19 I was dating a dealer and I was using almost every day for 8 months. I got drug induced psychosis and ended up in the psych ward for 2 months. Since then I’ve used with friends on occasion with my biggest benders being about a month. This time I’ve been using for a month and I’ve never felt so addicted. I will have a 0.25+ shot and if I’m not cross eyed jaw shaking I’ll do one again an hour later. Sometimes I will use 1g in 24 hours whereas my new partner has been using almost every day for 6 months and goes through max 0.2 in 24 hours. He smokes. I usually don’t chase drugs hard, I’ll make an impulse decision to get on and if I’m not sorted in about an hour I’ll give up and not worry about it. This bender though I’ve been out of control. I’ve scored drugs from randoms on Kik, thought about meeting up for Chen Sex with people, inviting an unknown dealer to my address behind my partners back scheming and deceiving until I finally had my big overamp then he asked me and I told him. I have not been studying, don’t have my routines going on, not being myself just consumed and compelled to use again to get super wasted, I won’t bother using if i smoke or have less than 1.5. Help. Advice? What stage am I at?