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Meth causes self to be antisocial, depressed, and a homebody.

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cba133110

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Hey ppl.. Apologies if this isn't the proper place to post this. New guy.

I've used meth regularly for 8 months. Prior to meth, I used cocaine for a year. Cocaine made me feel like king of the world. It gave me such a good euphoria, confidence, and made me wanna do things (clean, work out, talk, fap). Once I "graduated" to my meth use, I expected the same symptoms x10. Instead, ever since my first snort, I become extremely quiet, depressed because of my use and current stage in life, and I never leave home unless it's a must. I don't feel confident whatsoever, I'm usually google-ing shit or watching porn, when spoken to, I have a tough time speaking normal (even on the first day of my high). I'll say things louder or softer than intended.

Through my google-ing, I've came to believe this is not the norm. I wanted to post my experience with the drug to get some insight from other users/ex-users. Any comments would be appreciated.

Even re-assuring that my actions are not the norm.
 
Some people just don't respond positively to amphetamines (I know that first-hand since I'm one of them).
 
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Thanks for your response.

Dumb question here... Would a different ROA give the user a different reaction?
 
cba133110 said:
Thanks for your response.

Dumb question here... Would a different ROA give the user a different reaction?
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Not really, no. I've had a similar experience to you on occasions.

I would see it as a blessing if I were you, and stop using it. Those who really enjoy it can easily become addicted and then ultimately a lot more depressed.
 
CFC said:
I would see it as a blessing if I were you, and stop using it. Those who really enjoy it can easily become addicted and then ultimately a lot more depressed.
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What's sad is that you can still become addicted even if you find it puts you in a depressed mood, even if the anxiety/paranoia/negative side effects overwhelm the positive high.

I know from experience. When I'm planning on using meth I get so excited and anticipate the high being so fantastic, but after I binge for several days I inevitably lay there sleepless reflecting on my experience, feeling rough. I feel guilty as hell that I gave in. Why? It always underwhelms...

But somehow, after I haven't used for a week or so I begin to crave it again intensely and life seems incomplete. Lots of euphoric recall.

Of course then comes a time I decide that using a little meth is now acceptable, and the cycle begins again.

Lol@me
 
Of course then comes a time I decide that using a little meth is now acceptable, and the cycle begins again
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God damn on point! For now, I came to a reasoning for my use despite its negative feels... The Porn & The Fap. Thats the only activity I look forward to. So I'm addicted to porn and meth? Fuck...
 
Ozle said:
Some people just don't respond positively to amphetamines (I know that first-hand since I'm one of them).
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Also some people (like myself) are anitsocial, depressed and reclusive anyway. I've never touched amphetamines
 
What in the world are you talking about. Nothing makes you anti-social. Maybe you're bored
 
It "fixes" everything for me. Love the shit, yet can count my good Coke experiences on one hand. So it's just a matter of different strokes for different folks.
 
From what I've seen with my own eyes and from other comments, it is a blessing this is how this drug makes you feel. If you aren't happy with the results, don't do it again. Stick to what makes you feel good and makes you do good. In the long run, the drug in question will withhold you from sleep, socializing, and doing what makes you happy. That's one hell of a shitty side-affect for something you are questioning/thinking if you should do it again.

Leave it.
 
I have the same "problem". Stimulants, especially amphetamines, make me very antisocial and quiet, i do not wanna talk to anyone or answer my phone and it was so horrible if someone came to my door and wanted to visit. No way!
I don't use amphetamines anymore, has not used about 4 years (i prefer cathinones and pyrrolidines).
And amphs make me too calm and relaxed, so i do not like that very much. I am too relaxed already :D
 
I had one like two-week coke bender, currently two months in my first who knows-how-long meth bender, and yeah, that coke confidence is definitely missing with meth (for me, too). Mostly I think it's about the much much longer half life of meth, and how you remain wired long after euphoria fades. So suddenly the majority of time spent with people is more in the slowly gathering paranoia phase, or for me at least, a mostly vague sense of unease about what had to have been coincidences.

That and most non-spun folks aren't in to 12-hour porn binges.

ETA: I've also noticed that my brilliant early-high social mental witicisms just sound awkward and stutter-y when I get them out.
OK, so long time wired, less euphoria;
More chance to be in a darker frame around people;
Sound like a long-time meth head when speaking to people;
Generally being awake when everyone else is not;
And endless cycles of porn readily available in your dank dark lair--all reasons to hide when using crystal. That said, I'd hang out with you.
 
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