It's just when it comes to psychedelics I can handle them extremely well (which may or may not have to do with this, but just thought I might add that)
It's just I LOVE marijuana, I had smoked it for years and had nothing but great experiences (even smoked it everyday almost), so it has agreed with me for my whole life! It's jsut then I made a bad decision and I abused JWH018 to extremely unhealthy levels because I wanted to still get high, but my tolerance was very high from smoking marijuana everyday, so I made that bad desicion and now I think it has effected me negatively.
I just want to go back to the way it used to be, where I would smoke a good amount and be super stoned, relaxed, and laugh over nothing, not super stoned and freaked out and feeling crazy (from a .1 or .2 at the most!)
Do you think it is because the JWH018 caused me to have negative experiences associated with cb1 activation in the brain, that now when I get that activation causes me to associate it with the horrible experiences I had with 018.
Or could it just be that abusing pure JWH over a long period of time has manifested extreme anxiety in me (which it seems like it has, even though I haven't done it in 4 months or so), and caused my anxiety to get exacerbated by the marijuana high.
Either way, is there anyway to solve this?! I want to go back to the extremely fun highs from marijuana, and this just seems horribly unfair!! I don't want to get panicked when I smoke marijuana!!