Heh. I don't even remember when the last time I touched PV was. It's been well over a year now. I see the A-PHP floating around and occasionally entertain the thought briefly. But somehow common sense dictates that I just don't take that road ever again. Can't go back.
I left the RC scene 18 months ago, a defeated man with a bachelors degree in all things RC related.. I then went on to acquire my masters degree in alcoholism. I was in the ER 3 times over the summer, and finally went to rehab in August. Made it 30 days, relapsed, and ended up in the ER again when I decided to have a go at cutting my arms up whilst blacked out. Went to the psych ward, was released into an Outpatient Drug and Alcohol program. Fucked up again, went on a 2 week bender ending up once more in the ER with a BAC of .43. Went into the psych ward again for detox, and then joined a partial hospitalization program that I've been attending for 3 weeks.
In the last 30 days, I have drank only once.
I think the PV's really destroyed my self control with anything that I touch now. I never had alcoholic tendencies but once I moved away from the drug scene I became the prototypical drunk, unable to resist the urge to drink and unable to stop once I started.
Ah well. Hope you guys are doing well. I rarely swing by Bluelight these days but I remember being a frequent contributor to these threads. I miss the days of raving and obsessing over the Peev's with you guys, lol. But I'm glad those days are long gone.