Bummer about the old thread - ah well.
I haven't posted in ages but thought I may as well chime in now given the lack of content on the new thread.
In short, I'm a bit more than 2.5yrs in. As I'm sure you all would know, it has been a nightmare - one that for a long time I thought I'd just wake up from one day and vow to change my ways, but I long since gave up hope that there'd be a magical day that I just went back to normal.
The good news is, I'm definitely getting better with time. I have really good days where I think to myself that, if I felt like that every day, I could be satisfied with life. On the flip side, I have some really bad days - where conversation with friends is nigh on impossible because I have shocking verbal fluency and terrible information recall. I have to really concentrate to get the right words out - I can't trust my brain and often I'll be swapping the first letters of consecutive words or merging words together to speak total nonsense (I might be thinking of "small" and "little" and I'd say "smittle", for example).
I also find I have really big swings over 2 week periods. I might have 5-6 days of standard LTC, followed by 3-4 days of a plunge down, followed by 3-4 days of feeling better than I ever have during this ordeal. It's like my brain is going through construction cycles which is difficult whilst occurring but better when done. Weird.
I still have tinnitus and floaters but have learned to live with them and really are the least of my concerns.
Anyway, the general vibe I wanted to put out there is that I feel that recovery is absolutely possible as I do get a taste of it every now and again. The frustrating thing is that it feels like the recovery rate slows the further I go on. The first 3 months of the LTC I recovered a huge amount, these days 3 month time gaps are indistinguishable.
I did a big job on myself, 950mg or so, so if anyone should be prepared for the long haul, it is me. I try to stay off here as much as possible so apologies if you have any questions - I'll chime in again down the track when I have more recovery to document.
Keep fighting, everyone.
I haven't posted in ages but thought I may as well chime in now given the lack of content on the new thread.
In short, I'm a bit more than 2.5yrs in. As I'm sure you all would know, it has been a nightmare - one that for a long time I thought I'd just wake up from one day and vow to change my ways, but I long since gave up hope that there'd be a magical day that I just went back to normal.
The good news is, I'm definitely getting better with time. I have really good days where I think to myself that, if I felt like that every day, I could be satisfied with life. On the flip side, I have some really bad days - where conversation with friends is nigh on impossible because I have shocking verbal fluency and terrible information recall. I have to really concentrate to get the right words out - I can't trust my brain and often I'll be swapping the first letters of consecutive words or merging words together to speak total nonsense (I might be thinking of "small" and "little" and I'd say "smittle", for example).
I also find I have really big swings over 2 week periods. I might have 5-6 days of standard LTC, followed by 3-4 days of a plunge down, followed by 3-4 days of feeling better than I ever have during this ordeal. It's like my brain is going through construction cycles which is difficult whilst occurring but better when done. Weird.
I still have tinnitus and floaters but have learned to live with them and really are the least of my concerns.
Anyway, the general vibe I wanted to put out there is that I feel that recovery is absolutely possible as I do get a taste of it every now and again. The frustrating thing is that it feels like the recovery rate slows the further I go on. The first 3 months of the LTC I recovered a huge amount, these days 3 month time gaps are indistinguishable.
I did a big job on myself, 950mg or so, so if anyone should be prepared for the long haul, it is me. I try to stay off here as much as possible so apologies if you have any questions - I'll chime in again down the track when I have more recovery to document.
Keep fighting, everyone.