ParkerHoagland
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 24, 2016
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Beautiful post man.
Hey guys,
hope you are doing better out there.
Some of you will remember me.It's been 19months since my LTC started. Just wanted to spread some hope to you guys. Most of you are in a rly dark place right now, but trust me when I say it get's better. In my opinion this all comes to an end when you get yourself some rest. As Budal wrote: Accept your symptoms, things will get better. Realize not one of the symmptoms you experience will kill you and you won't go crazy. It's just an off-shot of a drug induced anxiety disorder, or however you wanna call it. You won't find no physical injuries in your brain, the key to your old self is time and some patience. Don't be too hard to yourself and try to get some distraction.(exercise, friends, what ever you want..)
My life runs pretty well atm. I have a new girlfriend, I do sports whenever I want, I'm doing my bachelors degree this year and I have a part time job. I am able to drink alcohol as much as I want(even if the hangover is a bit worse) and I smoked some weed on occasion(But its nothing for me anymore). Back one year I felt like a bag of shit and the only realistic solution I could imagine at that time was to comit suicide. Meanwhile this sounds so unreal to me.
I still have some bad days, in fact I will maybe come back if I have a little set back, just to get some positive input from you guys, but I'd say Im a normal human again and most of the time I can enjoy living my life.
Again:The most important thing is to not fear your Symptoms, cause your fear fuels them. Try to live with them and they will subside.
Ah, before I forget Paul Davids "At last a Life" is a pretty good lecture for short- and longtime sufferers in here. It's absolutely worth the money in my opinion.
Guys, I wish you all the best and I'm pretty optimistic, that everyone here will eventually recover.
It's been 1.5 years for me since last MDMA use after about 3 months of abuse. That's all it took to mess me up. How I perceive things drives me crazy like you are saying. And I try to vent and explain to the people around me. I feel hopeless at times, I hope I can start to get where you are at in your recover, I'm thinking another 6 months I will see bigger change I pray I do. And I will use ur tip about fear fuels them. That's my problem I start to focus on how my vision is weird still and how things start to move and just how thrown off my brain is and that's when I freak out. I need to learn to just look past and ignore it.