Ihatenotfeeling
Bluelighter
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I'm a 22 year old female and I am having a serious mdma comedown. I am on month 3 almost 4 and I am hopeless. I have absolutely no feelings.. I feel numb except for sadness. I can't feel excited, happy, mad, scared, Joy, empathy... literally nothing.... I feel like an empty shell left with just thoughts.. it's a living hell everyday and I think about suicide every day. I used to love going hiking and biking and now I can't even barley get out of bed and function. Also after I got severely dehydrated for almost a week and now all of my joints are popping non stop.. chest, shoulders, knees, ankles, wrists.. it's awful. My knee will pop like 5 times in one minute while standing up... could I have destroyed all my cartilage ? Does cartilage regenerate at a young age ? Also a little background info on my usage.. I abused for 3 months.. December I probably did it twice or 3 times, January 2 times and February is where I really fucked up and did it four days in a row.. first day was 3 pills and then next 3 days I probably did 5 each day. Help me please! Anyone have a similar experience and did they recover? Did I cause permanent damage to my anox ? I'm freaking out.. I know my usage was stupid.. I didn't realize how dangerous it was till after. ???? I literally think about killing myself all day everyday because this is so miserable. I was put in a psych ward for 2 and a half weeks and they put me on Wellbutrin and abilify.. will these even help? I am hopeless. Oh yeah and I'm also having weird twitching all over my body and weird popping sounds also coming from up inside my nose...
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