I stumbled over this well written article by cell recently and was thinking of medicating myself with MDMA again after abstaining for 20 months. I had been diagnosed with F 33.3 and I was diagnosed with F 33.1 a year ago.
I have been trying to fight off my social anxiety but I have not been able to do so. Doing everyday tasks while being around a lot of people stresses me out too much and I can't study nor concentrate as much as I would like to. Ironically the best days of my life had been the days after use were everything was a little bit foggy, but were I could simply live in a state of homeostasis.
The biggest problem speaking against its use is the last time I took it after taperring off aripiprazole. I was in a state of severe anxiety, which lasted around half a year till I took psilocybin for the first time.... Actually psilocybin is the best anti-anxiety drug I ever ingested. The fear of such a long lasting anxiety (maybe/probably the result of aripiprazole) coupled with the unknown long term risks have prevented me of taking such an incredible "medication" again.
I have been reading a lot of arcticles about its effect on memory, but there seems to be conflicting evidence of the severity of psychological damage done. My memory is getting better and better from day to day, which might be a result of regular psilocybin use (once every 2-3 weeks) and I don't want to lose too much of it. On the other side I can't handle the stress of living as a human being anymore and SSRI's, which often times seem to be not better than placebo are not an option for me. Maybe somebody can give me some more inside or an alternative idea (meditation, sports and a healthy diet have been done for years with very little effect). Thanks in regard.
I have been trying to fight off my social anxiety but I have not been able to do so. Doing everyday tasks while being around a lot of people stresses me out too much and I can't study nor concentrate as much as I would like to. Ironically the best days of my life had been the days after use were everything was a little bit foggy, but were I could simply live in a state of homeostasis.
The biggest problem speaking against its use is the last time I took it after taperring off aripiprazole. I was in a state of severe anxiety, which lasted around half a year till I took psilocybin for the first time.... Actually psilocybin is the best anti-anxiety drug I ever ingested. The fear of such a long lasting anxiety (maybe/probably the result of aripiprazole) coupled with the unknown long term risks have prevented me of taking such an incredible "medication" again.
I have been reading a lot of arcticles about its effect on memory, but there seems to be conflicting evidence of the severity of psychological damage done. My memory is getting better and better from day to day, which might be a result of regular psilocybin use (once every 2-3 weeks) and I don't want to lose too much of it. On the other side I can't handle the stress of living as a human being anymore and SSRI's, which often times seem to be not better than placebo are not an option for me. Maybe somebody can give me some more inside or an alternative idea (meditation, sports and a healthy diet have been done for years with very little effect). Thanks in regard.