Hey so I"m pretty experienced with MDMA back when I was younger -- did it maybe 50 times in the past ten years. Almost all of my rolls were great! (Different experiences, of course; some were better than others, but the point is that I know just what to expect.)
Anyhow tonight I took some (not tested) and it was coming on great - I was at a concert. (The only thing that was different is I preloaded with priceatam, and I did a bunch about two weeks ago, so I didn't space it out for a couple months like I normally would.) But then after the first rush I took a bit more, and it was too much.
And man let me tell you, tonight it sucked. I've had too much before and I know what that's like -- you just need to chill out, find someone to talk with or have a cigarette, and then after a bit you settle into a cool roll. But tonight the show was ruined for me because I was so very paranoid. (I realize in hindsight it was 98 percent in my head but I thought people were looking at me, laughing at me, I was worried about security, etc. Even after I got home hours ago I continued to feel paranoid and super anxious, and also, I felt like a lot of self-loathing for somewhat ruining my concert. Finally I took some xanax and now I'm all right.
MY QUESTION: Anyone ever have a similar experience? Any ideas what might my stuff been cut with? Regardless, I'm going on a long health kick for a while (like I often do; no recreational chemistry, a good diet, lots of sleep and exercise. I'm getting too old for this shit!) But I was just curious if anyone knows of any additives that could have contributed to this, or if the priceatam may have contributed? It was just odd to have a roll start normally and then go so awry.
Thanks if anyone has any thoughts.
Anyhow tonight I took some (not tested) and it was coming on great - I was at a concert. (The only thing that was different is I preloaded with priceatam, and I did a bunch about two weeks ago, so I didn't space it out for a couple months like I normally would.) But then after the first rush I took a bit more, and it was too much.
And man let me tell you, tonight it sucked. I've had too much before and I know what that's like -- you just need to chill out, find someone to talk with or have a cigarette, and then after a bit you settle into a cool roll. But tonight the show was ruined for me because I was so very paranoid. (I realize in hindsight it was 98 percent in my head but I thought people were looking at me, laughing at me, I was worried about security, etc. Even after I got home hours ago I continued to feel paranoid and super anxious, and also, I felt like a lot of self-loathing for somewhat ruining my concert. Finally I took some xanax and now I'm all right.
MY QUESTION: Anyone ever have a similar experience? Any ideas what might my stuff been cut with? Regardless, I'm going on a long health kick for a while (like I often do; no recreational chemistry, a good diet, lots of sleep and exercise. I'm getting too old for this shit!) But I was just curious if anyone knows of any additives that could have contributed to this, or if the priceatam may have contributed? It was just odd to have a roll start normally and then go so awry.
Thanks if anyone has any thoughts.
