Unicornfarts123
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 11, 2017
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- 12
Hey guys!I am currently on what seems like my 1000th time WD. Off and on for nearly 10 years now and I'm 29 now which is bs I hate myself for putting myself through this time and time again but for the past year I've been on them every day prescribed by the Dr and I always run out. I knew i was going to run out this time yet again so with what little I had i tried to taper quickly a few days ago 20 mg next day 10 next day 5 ( I think that's how it went because I was already starting to feel shitty) anyways today is my first full day with nothing and I feel horrible barely slept smoked a little devils lettuce around 5 am def made the situation worse when normally it would make it better I was completely agitated and anxious. Felt like shit on a stick all freaking dat yet somehow forced myself up to do some cleaning made food etc (I have kids and I'll be damned if I ever neglect them even when I feel like I'm dying) I'm worried about how much worse this will get. Also prescribed a small dose of adderall daily which seemed to help some and taking 800 mg ibuprofen trying to eat as much as I can and stay hydrated. I dont have access to anything else. I am determined not to go through this hell again. And once this nightmare is over with I will come off my adderall. I was on a dose id say anywhere from 20 to 30 to 50 sometimes maybe a little more but over the course of the past few days u can see above that I dropped quick. I'm scared it's going to be even worse and how much worse. Sucks I don't have my husband's support he tells me he don't wanna hear about it that I did it to myself so I can't vent to him so I suffer in silence. But I just found out my bestie got out of prison a few days ago and she is coming by later so I can have someone to talk to. I have been through this so many times why do I keep doing this to myself geez. It's like I'm living a real life ground hog day.