I have smoked pretty much a few times a week for 3 years (sometimes more sometimes less) and cannabis have had mostly good effects on me. I loved it and it enhanced my life in many ways. It was kind of like it was made for me.
Then one day after some changes in my life, I once got high after a few days sober and the worst ever mindfuck hit me. I had actually made a big misstake that would maybe have ruined my life forever (or certainly at least for about a year), and I couldn't do anything to change it now. I understand that this is something that's hard for you to grasp but it IS actually that bad... It was when I was high that I had realized how serious of a situation this was for me. I felt struck by the lightning, really, and not many people gets struck by a lightning. Also I'm not crazy and I know that the thoughts about the situation are logical.
After this had happened, I've spent 4-5 months in severe depression beyond any words. The first maybe 2 months I was completely suicidal all the time, and now it's just a tiny bit better in some way I guess, but it's still actually just as bad, and I don't know if I'm going to be alive in 1,5 years or so. I also stopped smoking after this and have only smoked once or twice in about 4-5 months, and this was 3-4 months ago (about 1 month after it all had happened).
Although my situation is probably very rare and the worst one of all (however this sounds to you), I just wanted to ask anyway if someone has been through anything similiar to this when smoking weed. If someone can relate in some way.
Then one day after some changes in my life, I once got high after a few days sober and the worst ever mindfuck hit me. I had actually made a big misstake that would maybe have ruined my life forever (or certainly at least for about a year), and I couldn't do anything to change it now. I understand that this is something that's hard for you to grasp but it IS actually that bad... It was when I was high that I had realized how serious of a situation this was for me. I felt struck by the lightning, really, and not many people gets struck by a lightning. Also I'm not crazy and I know that the thoughts about the situation are logical.
After this had happened, I've spent 4-5 months in severe depression beyond any words. The first maybe 2 months I was completely suicidal all the time, and now it's just a tiny bit better in some way I guess, but it's still actually just as bad, and I don't know if I'm going to be alive in 1,5 years or so. I also stopped smoking after this and have only smoked once or twice in about 4-5 months, and this was 3-4 months ago (about 1 month after it all had happened).
Although my situation is probably very rare and the worst one of all (however this sounds to you), I just wanted to ask anyway if someone has been through anything similiar to this when smoking weed. If someone can relate in some way.