Cyanoide
Bluelighter
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No guys and girls, this is not a "what should I take" thread. You should know better by looking at my history.
But the thing is I have a serious benzo addiction and in the evenings after work I almost always drink alcohol and very much so. Right now I'm drunk and high on 1000+ mg of Lyrica.
I'm destroying my life. I need to find a different perspective on life. It's not worth throwing away with GABAergics like I'm doing now.
I'm an experienced psychonaut but what I now need is some input and feedback from you fellow psychonauts.
I have decided I will take a psychedelic in the coming months to reach my subconscious. 4-AcO-DMT is by far my favourite and generally I prefer tryptamines, but 4-AcO-DMT is too sedating for this purpuse. Iin this case I have already decide LSD will be my choice.
What I need from you is input and advice regarding the trip. It's not going to be fun because I am going to face all the negative feelings that lead me to drinking. I'm not afraid of any "bad trip", that may be part of the experience (but nowhere near the absolutely freaky trips I've had on DPT, which I consider a tryptamine straight from hell, it's inherently evil for me)
Anyway. LSD for an alcoholic. I need some input from you. A psychedelic trip based on mostly my own problems and fears. I feel anxious about taking LSD, but I see this as something I have to do. I have to face have my subconscious and my own fears.
I've also used alot of ketamine the last months. While I love ketamine and the K-hole, it's just escapism for me. I don't remember anything from the experience and if I do, the "revelations" in the K-hole are so absurd I cannot integrate them into my life in any way.
But the thing is I have a serious benzo addiction and in the evenings after work I almost always drink alcohol and very much so. Right now I'm drunk and high on 1000+ mg of Lyrica.
I'm destroying my life. I need to find a different perspective on life. It's not worth throwing away with GABAergics like I'm doing now.
I'm an experienced psychonaut but what I now need is some input and feedback from you fellow psychonauts.
I have decided I will take a psychedelic in the coming months to reach my subconscious. 4-AcO-DMT is by far my favourite and generally I prefer tryptamines, but 4-AcO-DMT is too sedating for this purpuse. Iin this case I have already decide LSD will be my choice.
What I need from you is input and advice regarding the trip. It's not going to be fun because I am going to face all the negative feelings that lead me to drinking. I'm not afraid of any "bad trip", that may be part of the experience (but nowhere near the absolutely freaky trips I've had on DPT, which I consider a tryptamine straight from hell, it's inherently evil for me)
Anyway. LSD for an alcoholic. I need some input from you. A psychedelic trip based on mostly my own problems and fears. I feel anxious about taking LSD, but I see this as something I have to do. I have to face have my subconscious and my own fears.
I've also used alot of ketamine the last months. While I love ketamine and the K-hole, it's just escapism for me. I don't remember anything from the experience and if I do, the "revelations" in the K-hole are so absurd I cannot integrate them into my life in any way.
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