Yuri057
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 19, 2015
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Since lsd death i have been on a rollercoaster of confusion for few years now... I work and independent but the confusion comes and goes... Sometimes I go smoke weed in forest at night alone... When i get scared I run around like an animal... Just operating on instincts... Flight or fight.... Plants see me everything turns digital for a while where only logic is the way of information... I answer im alive i want to live... nature wants me to merge with it... Im afraid if i do i wont be able to go back... my body is not designed for survival in this ecosystem therefore im a foreign substance on this planet... If we evolved from earth lifeforms wouldnt it make more sense we would adopt to surrounding environment better overtime instead of creating our own....
Since ego death iv been in complete isolation... Its like im an alien.... There is nothing in common with anyone...
People stay clear of me... I suspect its the parasites that alter their reality... When ur out of the dark energy grid it wants u back by trying to make u miserable.... So ur back generating suffering and dark energy they feed on.... I find it could be anything from frequent masturbation to looping thoughts worries... Anxiety.... Humans are not ment to be like that this... Itsnot normal....
Anyone has any experience with merging with nature? Or any other forces? Or with the insect dark parasires that feed on souls....
Anyone else feels like alien from a different dimention... Its not that im not active shy or dont try... I talk to people... But it feels similar as talking to trees....
Even my family... Its like everything true is now and all the false has disapeared... I never had a real relationship with anyone yet...
In truth the darkness cannot be present... So this isreal...
Im almost 30 ex military ex trucker and pushing to the outer limits of the human perception... Looking for the truth... Love... And somewhere to belong to... On my way to god... A higher force... We all have our ways.. They all meet at the end...
Thanks for reading... Im curious if anyone out there can understand...
Since ego death iv been in complete isolation... Its like im an alien.... There is nothing in common with anyone...
People stay clear of me... I suspect its the parasites that alter their reality... When ur out of the dark energy grid it wants u back by trying to make u miserable.... So ur back generating suffering and dark energy they feed on.... I find it could be anything from frequent masturbation to looping thoughts worries... Anxiety.... Humans are not ment to be like that this... Itsnot normal....
Anyone has any experience with merging with nature? Or any other forces? Or with the insect dark parasires that feed on souls....
Anyone else feels like alien from a different dimention... Its not that im not active shy or dont try... I talk to people... But it feels similar as talking to trees....
Even my family... Its like everything true is now and all the false has disapeared... I never had a real relationship with anyone yet...
In truth the darkness cannot be present... So this isreal...
Im almost 30 ex military ex trucker and pushing to the outer limits of the human perception... Looking for the truth... Love... And somewhere to belong to... On my way to god... A higher force... We all have our ways.. They all meet at the end...
Thanks for reading... Im curious if anyone out there can understand...
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