lost magic
Greenlighter
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Hi,
I wanted to share an experience and maybe get some advice or other perspectives on our current situation.
My wife and I recently started to experiment with MDMA. I am 37 and have dabbled a bit when I was younger, 20 years ago, my wife has never tried.
We tried some MDMA crystals, I bought a reagent kit and and some scales to measure accurate doses, but what I didnt read up on was the pattern of taking it and now we find ourselves in a position where things have gone wrong.
The first time we tried was about 3 months ago, we both took around 120mg, redosing once or twice a few hours later, we had an amazing time, it felt really strong and apart from being a little overwhelmed by the come up we enjoyed it a lot. The setting was at home, listening to some music, I DJ and we were enjoying the music and the lights from my speaker, we also found it made us very romantic and we spent most of the time in bed. We had no comedown really and slept fine after a good few hours and loved it so much we wanted to do it again.
So we did, the next day...
The experience was pretty much the same and we thought we had found the perfect drug!
That was a Saturday and Sunday.
The following thursday we decided yet again (Stupid now I know) to do it again and it didnt work, the high was dirty and not euphoric at all, we were very hot and tired and didnt enjoy it. Thats when we started to read up on tolerance. We quickly realised that this is not something to do daily, weekly or anywhere near that often so we put it away and took a break. We managed to last 2 weeks and then we did it again and it worked perfectly, actually better than before, although we had moved the dose up to 150 for her and 200 for me.
We then proceeded to do this every week / fortnight for around 8 weeks, so a total of about 5 more times. So perhaps 8-9 times in total.
Each time was progressively less intense, the euphoria was getting less and less, the duration less and less, the amount we were taking was increasing and the comedowns worse each time.
The last time we did it was after a 17 day break and it actually was pretty unpleasant, it started OK, but quickly felt tired and dirty and the comedown was horrible.
We know that the way we have been taking it is abuse, the last couple times we got through 1.25 grams between us spilt .5 and .75 her and me. I even started doing lines of it to try and get a quicker hit.
We didnt set out to abuse it but we just wanted that first time feeling back.
Having read many many posts now from others we realise just how wrong we got it and we plan to take a long break.
The question is how long, we know it has to be months, 3 / 6 / 12?? We dont want to run the risk of having another bad experience or worse ruining it forever. We are hoping that fact that we haven't done it even ten times will go in our favour but who knows, we've taken a lot.
The other thing Im looking into is a daily plan of other things to try and repair the damage, daily multi vitamin, 5HTP?, DXM in sub active doses? Nootropil (we did try Nootropil on around week 5 and had some mixed results although its highly possible it could have been placebo or any other number of variable factors.
We have certainly learned our lesson the hard way and will respect it from now on, just hoping its not too late
I wanted to share an experience and maybe get some advice or other perspectives on our current situation.
My wife and I recently started to experiment with MDMA. I am 37 and have dabbled a bit when I was younger, 20 years ago, my wife has never tried.
We tried some MDMA crystals, I bought a reagent kit and and some scales to measure accurate doses, but what I didnt read up on was the pattern of taking it and now we find ourselves in a position where things have gone wrong.
The first time we tried was about 3 months ago, we both took around 120mg, redosing once or twice a few hours later, we had an amazing time, it felt really strong and apart from being a little overwhelmed by the come up we enjoyed it a lot. The setting was at home, listening to some music, I DJ and we were enjoying the music and the lights from my speaker, we also found it made us very romantic and we spent most of the time in bed. We had no comedown really and slept fine after a good few hours and loved it so much we wanted to do it again.
So we did, the next day...
The experience was pretty much the same and we thought we had found the perfect drug!
That was a Saturday and Sunday.
The following thursday we decided yet again (Stupid now I know) to do it again and it didnt work, the high was dirty and not euphoric at all, we were very hot and tired and didnt enjoy it. Thats when we started to read up on tolerance. We quickly realised that this is not something to do daily, weekly or anywhere near that often so we put it away and took a break. We managed to last 2 weeks and then we did it again and it worked perfectly, actually better than before, although we had moved the dose up to 150 for her and 200 for me.
We then proceeded to do this every week / fortnight for around 8 weeks, so a total of about 5 more times. So perhaps 8-9 times in total.
Each time was progressively less intense, the euphoria was getting less and less, the duration less and less, the amount we were taking was increasing and the comedowns worse each time.
The last time we did it was after a 17 day break and it actually was pretty unpleasant, it started OK, but quickly felt tired and dirty and the comedown was horrible.
We know that the way we have been taking it is abuse, the last couple times we got through 1.25 grams between us spilt .5 and .75 her and me. I even started doing lines of it to try and get a quicker hit.
We didnt set out to abuse it but we just wanted that first time feeling back.
Having read many many posts now from others we realise just how wrong we got it and we plan to take a long break.
The question is how long, we know it has to be months, 3 / 6 / 12?? We dont want to run the risk of having another bad experience or worse ruining it forever. We are hoping that fact that we haven't done it even ten times will go in our favour but who knows, we've taken a lot.
The other thing Im looking into is a daily plan of other things to try and repair the damage, daily multi vitamin, 5HTP?, DXM in sub active doses? Nootropil (we did try Nootropil on around week 5 and had some mixed results although its highly possible it could have been placebo or any other number of variable factors.
We have certainly learned our lesson the hard way and will respect it from now on, just hoping its not too late