I have been abstinent of any substances besides prescribed meds for more than a year now. Maybe I'll never take higher doses of dissos again, if there's no way to get around the problems, that's the fucking thing I am asking. Yes, I was addicted to dissos at some point as were others too, that's life and what's wrong about collecting some data? I
have seen more than one, more than four doctors and they just confirmed my impression that they aren't up to date, and that they don't care about that. I have chronic mental health 'issues' which don't respond to the usual stuff, that's how and why I started to educate myself a bit and also why I turned into a guinea pig. My sober state would drive me to suicide, point. I need chemical distraction to stay alive. I spent and lost years with psychiatry. Was on drug rehab too just to find out that I'm very different from the average client there. And so on.
@December Flower, honestly please stop derailing and leave this thread alone. I fully agree with you, taking drugs isn't exactly science, but this doesn't make me implicably non-responsable.
@ecstasylover thanks for your input, and for confirming me that the voice phenomenon isn't necessarily toxic but just a 'feature' of the dissoverse - I need to read up more about schizophrenia, know that NMDA antagonists are said to mimic or even lead to it, there are even animal models but they are mostly using PCP which seems to have additional toxicity which other dissos, specially the serotonergic ones like MXE (5ht2a activity protects against NMDAR antagonism mediated toxicity in rats) don't necessarily share. Still, there's a paper about visible changes on MRI in ketamine addicts with more than 0.5g/d for 6 months and more (note that most candidats were poly drug users) but we have nothing about if, to which degree, and how fast/slow these changes might heal upon abstinence, if and to which degree other agents could protect / if the findings in rats are applicable to humans, and so forth. The brain is very plastic, it needs quite a bit to turn it into potato salad but believing in that your brain is such will eventually lead to that... (don't wanna say that taking RCs is wise at all, many of them are quite worrying but also more or less easily spotable with some common sense, yet the community is indeed all we have, say thanks to Nixon)
I'll write more detailed later to your posting
@ecstasylover.
Edit: Yes, I did write scientists, and by that I meant these people who publish the Pubmed etc papers, based on which we all form our theories, probably. I'm not a scientist and don't call myself such, but I want and try to get as much as information about something which isn't really documented yet, and with a bit of luck I'll be a student of either neurosciences or pharmacology next year...