Hello everyone.
I recently had the most interesting of my acid trips and since it happened I still can't quite wrap my head around it.
I've been a fairly regular tripper the past two years. The past year I've done lsd once or twice a week. I trip alone, typically, as its a vey personal enlightening experience to me. I'm also an INFP so I love my me time. But up until now I've only had euphoric happy trips. I wouldn't call any of my trips bad- even this one- even when I get overwhelmed or near fear, there's something that always keeps me content.
However, this l trip I experienced something changed my view on everything. I'm just not sure how yet.
Anyway it started with me watching a movie on three tabs, everything was great. I laughed harder then I Ever laughed before at the end of the move.
It was around midnight and 1 when my roommate came out for a midnight snack as the movie ended. I realized paranoia was setting in when I went out to see her. Typically I'd stay in my trippy zone alone. I immediately wanted back in my room so I said hi and went back.
The next part happened all too quickly. It's like it all Hit me. I don't remember finishing my conversation with my roommate but I got back to my room and kinda squated down to think. Then I remembered that we hadn't finished our conversation at all; she had just suddenly Stopped all movement in the kitchen and froze in time so I just kinda was like whelp cool I'm gonna go back to my room now bc I'm definitely trippy. But I forgot the whole thing until that moment I squated down.
I remember while sitting there in my room thinking about that hearing the doors in the other room reopen and shut and the same sounds over and over again. I just knew time was rewinding and fast forwarding. I could even feel it. I remember every time it happened I begged whatever the source was to "leave her (my roommate-and anyone else for that matter) out of it."
Also, in that moment I had a struggle like there was two sides of me; a good and a bad arguing back and forth in my head. Split.
When I got a hold of my thoughts I decided to put on Harry Potter as something farmiliar to get me calm. That's when I really started freaking out.
I put on the movie and time was completely contorted. Not a little slurred or seemingly slow- it was crawling and then zipping up. I had never experienced this before. And then time would actually Skip. The movie was jumping from 5 minutes in to halfway through and back to another point. I shut this off and decided to sit with myself.
This is where I learned the meaning of Ego death. That's the only way I know how to describe that moment. I vaguely remember being annoyed with my best friend going into the trip and at this moment I was on my knees Begging the universe to give me back all of the things I had hated about it particularly all the things she did that drove me nuts. I'd take it if it meant having my reality back.
Then there were images. I don't know if my eyes were open or closed.
I saw beings. They were all bowing down and I was a part of them being pulled down by their force. I was amazed. I kept asking "But why" soon it overtook me and I said "okay okay" and bowed too.
For some reason the thought popped into my head that aliens were in control of overseeing and controlling earth and that was who I connected with. (I don't know why because I'm not into that stuff very much at all)
Even with this thought that I was somehow their slave, I didn't feel bad about it. I felt safe, although bewildered. I was overwhelmed but I didn't feel fear for that. Just wonder.
I also remember seeing figures dancing- what looks like trees shaking their apples. It was pretty nuts.
Then the most incredible thing happened. I saw multiuniverses (this is another thing I just knew. I haven't looked much into them before this but in that moment I knew what to call it)
They looked like endless glass balls of earth falling in together like a waterfall.
After this I lost touch with reality. I found it again by writing. I filled up an entire notebook with just babble. I remember writing that I had found my mind, now I needed to find my body, etc and that the pen was my only connection to reality.
Time was gone at this point. Minutes were lasting what felt like a half hour- if it wasn't jumping back and forth.
I've always believed time is an allusion but I've never experienced it like this and I was Not prepared.
The idea got into my head that once I had been allowed to see this type of thing I wasn't going to be allowed back to normality with this information. I was certain I wouldn't be let back.
I was strangely content with this as whatever was going to be would be. I remember being thankful I had so many books to read if I did get stuck in that moment for what could be years.
The last big thing that happened was I got the feeling someone was going to contact me. I wanted them to and was waiting. I felt willing to learn but the thought of not being let back was still scaring me. The whole experience was scaring me but I wasn't giving into that.
You know how noises are so prominent on acid? You can hear Everything. The jogger out your window across the streets, the fridge running, the laundry machines, the air going through your vents...? Well I was hearing all of that and then all of a sudden everything, and I mean Everything stopped all at once and there was a loud click from my computer.
As soon as I heard the click I panicked. I was certain some Matrix shit was about to go down. Anyway my theory is that if something was going to talk to me it felt my fear and I ruined it.
So that's my experience. It was intense but I don't consider it a bad trip at all. But it was all so very real and since then my views and beliefs on Everything have changed. I did research and thought I may have gotten ketamine based acid and fell into a K-hole and went off on my friend for giving it to me but I did more research and found some people had similar experience when there was a build up of LSD in their system and considering the amounts I was taking then that could be true.
Anyway what is your incite? Do you think it was created by my brain? Or that my consciousness is connected to a different source and I broke some type of wall. Maybe it just says something about my psychology?
I've always enjoyed mind expansion but I'm not one to get majorly into the social world of it and I don't have the knowledge of it I'm sure some of you do. So if you could give me any incite on what the hell happened- I'd be greatful. It was a wonderful experience.
I recently had the most interesting of my acid trips and since it happened I still can't quite wrap my head around it.
I've been a fairly regular tripper the past two years. The past year I've done lsd once or twice a week. I trip alone, typically, as its a vey personal enlightening experience to me. I'm also an INFP so I love my me time. But up until now I've only had euphoric happy trips. I wouldn't call any of my trips bad- even this one- even when I get overwhelmed or near fear, there's something that always keeps me content.
However, this l trip I experienced something changed my view on everything. I'm just not sure how yet.
Anyway it started with me watching a movie on three tabs, everything was great. I laughed harder then I Ever laughed before at the end of the move.
It was around midnight and 1 when my roommate came out for a midnight snack as the movie ended. I realized paranoia was setting in when I went out to see her. Typically I'd stay in my trippy zone alone. I immediately wanted back in my room so I said hi and went back.
The next part happened all too quickly. It's like it all Hit me. I don't remember finishing my conversation with my roommate but I got back to my room and kinda squated down to think. Then I remembered that we hadn't finished our conversation at all; she had just suddenly Stopped all movement in the kitchen and froze in time so I just kinda was like whelp cool I'm gonna go back to my room now bc I'm definitely trippy. But I forgot the whole thing until that moment I squated down.
I remember while sitting there in my room thinking about that hearing the doors in the other room reopen and shut and the same sounds over and over again. I just knew time was rewinding and fast forwarding. I could even feel it. I remember every time it happened I begged whatever the source was to "leave her (my roommate-and anyone else for that matter) out of it."
Also, in that moment I had a struggle like there was two sides of me; a good and a bad arguing back and forth in my head. Split.
When I got a hold of my thoughts I decided to put on Harry Potter as something farmiliar to get me calm. That's when I really started freaking out.
I put on the movie and time was completely contorted. Not a little slurred or seemingly slow- it was crawling and then zipping up. I had never experienced this before. And then time would actually Skip. The movie was jumping from 5 minutes in to halfway through and back to another point. I shut this off and decided to sit with myself.
This is where I learned the meaning of Ego death. That's the only way I know how to describe that moment. I vaguely remember being annoyed with my best friend going into the trip and at this moment I was on my knees Begging the universe to give me back all of the things I had hated about it particularly all the things she did that drove me nuts. I'd take it if it meant having my reality back.
Then there were images. I don't know if my eyes were open or closed.
I saw beings. They were all bowing down and I was a part of them being pulled down by their force. I was amazed. I kept asking "But why" soon it overtook me and I said "okay okay" and bowed too.
For some reason the thought popped into my head that aliens were in control of overseeing and controlling earth and that was who I connected with. (I don't know why because I'm not into that stuff very much at all)
Even with this thought that I was somehow their slave, I didn't feel bad about it. I felt safe, although bewildered. I was overwhelmed but I didn't feel fear for that. Just wonder.
I also remember seeing figures dancing- what looks like trees shaking their apples. It was pretty nuts.
Then the most incredible thing happened. I saw multiuniverses (this is another thing I just knew. I haven't looked much into them before this but in that moment I knew what to call it)
They looked like endless glass balls of earth falling in together like a waterfall.
After this I lost touch with reality. I found it again by writing. I filled up an entire notebook with just babble. I remember writing that I had found my mind, now I needed to find my body, etc and that the pen was my only connection to reality.
Time was gone at this point. Minutes were lasting what felt like a half hour- if it wasn't jumping back and forth.
I've always believed time is an allusion but I've never experienced it like this and I was Not prepared.
The idea got into my head that once I had been allowed to see this type of thing I wasn't going to be allowed back to normality with this information. I was certain I wouldn't be let back.
I was strangely content with this as whatever was going to be would be. I remember being thankful I had so many books to read if I did get stuck in that moment for what could be years.
The last big thing that happened was I got the feeling someone was going to contact me. I wanted them to and was waiting. I felt willing to learn but the thought of not being let back was still scaring me. The whole experience was scaring me but I wasn't giving into that.
You know how noises are so prominent on acid? You can hear Everything. The jogger out your window across the streets, the fridge running, the laundry machines, the air going through your vents...? Well I was hearing all of that and then all of a sudden everything, and I mean Everything stopped all at once and there was a loud click from my computer.
As soon as I heard the click I panicked. I was certain some Matrix shit was about to go down. Anyway my theory is that if something was going to talk to me it felt my fear and I ruined it.
So that's my experience. It was intense but I don't consider it a bad trip at all. But it was all so very real and since then my views and beliefs on Everything have changed. I did research and thought I may have gotten ketamine based acid and fell into a K-hole and went off on my friend for giving it to me but I did more research and found some people had similar experience when there was a build up of LSD in their system and considering the amounts I was taking then that could be true.
Anyway what is your incite? Do you think it was created by my brain? Or that my consciousness is connected to a different source and I broke some type of wall. Maybe it just says something about my psychology?
I've always enjoyed mind expansion but I'm not one to get majorly into the social world of it and I don't have the knowledge of it I'm sure some of you do. So if you could give me any incite on what the hell happened- I'd be greatful. It was a wonderful experience.
