Hey guys,
Just looking for some advice about some issues I am currently having, which I believe can be attributed to extensive MDMA/Ecstacy usage.
Basically I broke up with my serious girlfriend in November 2013 and started taking pills/MDMA.
To start it was maybe 3 a night but by the end got up to about 8-10 or close to a gram of MDMA most weekends.
So basically between November 2013 and May 2015 with the exclusion of probably about 3-6 months in total (weekends without), I've been stupidly taking too many drugs.
I also had a script for Valium so id be able to go out and eat 10 pills then come home and eat about 50mg of valium and sleep/kick on.
I began developing serious memory problems but also I believe this neurotoxicity may have brought out some underlying spine/neck issues.
Currently I have a burning pain in my lower back and get a stiff spine and also feel as though there is a knot in my neck.
My anxiety is completely fucked, I put myself on an SSRI because I want to get my life together again.
But it's literally at the point of crippling me. Last weekend I was having coffee with a friend and he told me a story about how his fathers friend had neck pain and got a bone scan and it turned out he had terminal cancer. Immediately I had a panic attack and everything started burning and feeling fucked up.
Then I spent the weekend eating Xanax and just being completely out of it.
So i haven't touched any pills/MD in the last 3 weeks and plan to never again. I should note that the last couple of times I got on it I really struggled to breathe and felt like I was going to throw up (not the type where you're coming up too hard) and had to leave the club.
I'm going to see a Rheumatologist in about a week but at the moment I am completely fucked.
I feel like I'm inevitably going to die very soon and my life is deteriorating.
I don't know what impact the Benzo's have had, I had a massive problem with them as well but as of this year only took them for coming down.
I know I sound like an absolute idiot but really I was just a drug addict without even noticing it.
Any advice/feedback or similar stories would be greatly appreciated.
Because this is so fucked at the moment - getting brain zaps right now FML
Just looking for some advice about some issues I am currently having, which I believe can be attributed to extensive MDMA/Ecstacy usage.
Basically I broke up with my serious girlfriend in November 2013 and started taking pills/MDMA.
To start it was maybe 3 a night but by the end got up to about 8-10 or close to a gram of MDMA most weekends.
So basically between November 2013 and May 2015 with the exclusion of probably about 3-6 months in total (weekends without), I've been stupidly taking too many drugs.
I also had a script for Valium so id be able to go out and eat 10 pills then come home and eat about 50mg of valium and sleep/kick on.
I began developing serious memory problems but also I believe this neurotoxicity may have brought out some underlying spine/neck issues.
Currently I have a burning pain in my lower back and get a stiff spine and also feel as though there is a knot in my neck.
My anxiety is completely fucked, I put myself on an SSRI because I want to get my life together again.
But it's literally at the point of crippling me. Last weekend I was having coffee with a friend and he told me a story about how his fathers friend had neck pain and got a bone scan and it turned out he had terminal cancer. Immediately I had a panic attack and everything started burning and feeling fucked up.
Then I spent the weekend eating Xanax and just being completely out of it.
So i haven't touched any pills/MD in the last 3 weeks and plan to never again. I should note that the last couple of times I got on it I really struggled to breathe and felt like I was going to throw up (not the type where you're coming up too hard) and had to leave the club.
I'm going to see a Rheumatologist in about a week but at the moment I am completely fucked.
I feel like I'm inevitably going to die very soon and my life is deteriorating.
I don't know what impact the Benzo's have had, I had a massive problem with them as well but as of this year only took them for coming down.
I know I sound like an absolute idiot but really I was just a drug addict without even noticing it.
Any advice/feedback or similar stories would be greatly appreciated.
Because this is so fucked at the moment - getting brain zaps right now FML