So I just WD from Kratom, with my PTSD and all the big bad boy symptoms, one is anxiety, that comes with it. I get where you are coming from, not wanting any drugs I went for the Kratom, it worked until the bitch turned on me. Now I am left with more anxiety than when I started. Fought my whole life not to take klonopin, Ativan, Val, etc. docs r all too eager to hand them out for ptsd patients. I did try Klonopin for two months had to come off because it was making me violent in my sleep.
I watched a close friend of mine, a disabled Vet, on all those meds spiral out of control through his PTSD symptoms until he broke and they threw him in the hospital for a few months. After watching him and others I was like F that bag of cats! I knew when I took the K for the flashbacks and anxiety I knew then my ass needed to be in therapy. I am back in EMDR therapy learning and preparing for emdr to work through the flashbacks. I am not going to lie the ANXIETY IS A BITCH! But I am learning new ways to cope and bring it down for the crisis moments. Everyday I am recognizing triggers, working it, I see improvement and I experience freedom.
But know that you try everything you can to find what works for you! I don?t care if it?s standing on your head reciting dr Seuss if that works then do it!! Learning ourselves is a process. Also I do believe sometimes you have to medicate while doing the work. I?ve seen it done, people so beat down with the fog they needed it lifted in order to do the work. Perhaps getting a different doc, and working on building a support team to help you while you work towards treatment goals is needed. Keep posting~XO