EternityBeing
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 9, 2012
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So my husband and I decided to spend our honeymoon in Vegas with our drug of choice: LSD. Which is off and on my favorite drug, although I am not very experienced yet. So we ate our paper early on in the evening. I started out with one full hit, which I have only ever done twice before, and any other time I start with 1/4 as I am quite sensitive to substances. I came up normally, starting out with a mild body high and slight euphoria.
We normally don't ever go out in to public while using acid, but decided that we should be fine just walking down the strip watching all the lights and enjoying the music. So once we felt out how hard we were tripping, we decided that we would head out. I went into a panic, and had caught a glance in the mirror of myself. I decided for some strange reason that I was going to try to put some makeup on, I am not a superficial person and rarely wear makeup nor care about what I am wearing. I tried for about five minutes to apply the makeup and decided it just wasn't going to happen. So I went to my suitcase and tried to find something to wear. I felt completely inadequate with everything I tried on. I started to break down, and ended up in the fetal position on the bed with my husband trying to calm me down. I pulled myself out of my hole and just put something on, we got ready to leave, I could hear people outside of the door, and began to panic again. So i decided that a few shots of alcohol might calm my nerves. So I took two shots and tried to gain my composure.
Things were beginning to move a lot. We got down stairs to the lobby and I felt a little better, we walked outside and started to walk towards the busy part of the strip with the big casinos. It was so hot, and one of the first things we saw was on old homeless man with crutches on the street, it broke my heart and I didn't know what to do. I wanted to help but didn't know how, I thought about as we walked down the street, and I remember a friend of ours that we had whom burned all his bridges and tore his life a part using drugs, and I remember that no matter how many times we tried to help him, it was useless until he picked himself up, took responsibility for his life and helped himself. There was nothing I could do to help until he helped himself. That made me feel a little better about the homeless people we saw along the way. But it still broke my heart.
The first casino we went to was treasure island, it was busy, but I handled it ok, as I had been in before and my memory took me where I needed to go. We ended up coming out of doors and there were so many people, it was just about time for a show. So we went back in and went around the other way, we had wanted to make it to the venetian because I thought the scenery was neat. So we got out of treasure island and headed on. The buildings were so incredibly large and intimidating. Everything was huge!
I don't remember feeling much of a body high, but was stuck in my head. We came to an intersection, and two guys broke out into a fight! (Why do strange things always happen when i'm tripping?!
) We headed on, and I started to people watch. The noises got louder there were more and more people. My brain was really having a hard time processing it all. I decided I wanted a frozen drink, so we found a small shop and started to go in, but as I was looking at the menu the words started to disappear and I couldn't read anything. I felt panic again, so decided it wasn't worth it. Kept walking and I was starting to get frustrated with the lack of control I had over where I was going. There were so many moving sidewalks, escalators, and sky bridges, so instead of taking these escalators I opted to take stairs when I could, I became proud of my legs and human body and wanted to use it for what it was meant to be used for. At this point I felt like something in mind had been awakened, a part of me that was not human, and I could hear it in my head, and we started talking about all the people there, just mindless zombies being distracted with everything going on, no one had life in their eyes. They were all "lifeless". We started talking about the nonsense of Vegas and how consumer driven it was and I was filled with disgust.
We made it to the venetian and want to go down on the second level were there was music and lights outside, we were on the second level sky bridge entrance and I thought it should be easy to get to, however I have never been in the venetian and didn't think about the unfamiliarity of it. We go into the doors and I immediately feel lost and confused, I couldn't see the sky and had no clue what direction was which. I can't see any signs and have no idea where to go, I start to panic. I can't breathe and have no clue how I am going to get out of this huge place. We go downstairs because I knew that's what level I wanted to be on to get where I wanted to go. But it made it even worse, my heart was pounding, I could hardly see. I couldn't see an escape and I was getting scared. I remembered a mantra I like to use when ever a bad trip comes on " Be still and know that I am god, be still and know that I am, be still and know, be still, be" I tried repeating it in my head as I saw a set of stairs and ran up them to try to get out. My mantra was not working, I just wanted out. We finally make it out of the building and it looks like we are stuck on a balcony and the only way off it back inside. I knew I couldn't do it, I refused. So I stood at the edge of the balcony looking over the edge down at all going on, I was breathing heavy. I closed my eyes trying to relax. Once I gained control of my breathing I looked around to try and find a way down and out, every where I looked seemed like we were stuck. I thought that I found a way out so we started to walk, and thank the universe that it was the way out. I spotted a gelato shop and headed that way, but panic set in again when I thought about ordering. I could hear people talking, but they weren't speaking any language I have ever heard before. It freaked me out more, I couldn't understand anything. So we decided to start walking back the room. I couldn't handle it anymore.
On the way back I still felt stuck in my head. Me along with the other being in my head thought what in the world is this huge city of distraction doing out in the middle of nowhere? What are "they" trying to hide people from? ( I am a little bit into aliens and conspiracy theories 8)) The thought left our mind, and the being in my head, stated I gotta hand it to em, being able to process that all the time, sober human brains!
I began to feel proud again and we talked about how I need to be proud of who and what I am. I felt better about myself.
The closer we got to our room the better I felt, the calmer things were. My hubby and I talked about a few things here in there but I was still stuck in my head with the being. On the way back I wanted some food, the being in my head insisted we have healthy food from our mother earth, so I bought some grapes. They were delicious, we discussed how less is more and how I need to simplify more, in all walks of life from over consumerism to food, I had fractal images in my head of grape veins.
We got our hotel and got some food as I was starving! Pizza never tasted so good! We got to our room and the good euphoric part of the acid took over. YAY! I laid on the bed in silence, with my eyes closed and meditated. I noticed how different positions I laid in flowed different energies through my body, I put the bottoms of my feet together and felt energies flow through my body. Then I put my palms together and images of Buddha and the Hindu god Rama came into my head, then I put my arms across my chest like Egyptian mummies. I held myself like that and the being was talking about accepting all the gods and religions, said even Christ and the bible which would be the hardest for me to swallow. I saw a tree and was looking at it from the roots up, and the dirt started to crumble away and this bright brilliant light shown through and I saw this ball with spikes of prism light, bright and brilliant and beautiful and I felt peace, euphoria and oneness unlike I ever have before. It felt clean and pure. I woke up and the being was gone.
The rest of the night was pretty normal for acid, crazy visuals which I haven't had in a while, amazing sex with my hubby, and the jacuzzi tub was wonderful. I re-dosed about two hours after, not sure if it did much. As usual was hard to fall asleep, I felt as though at times, my body was asleep, but my minds eye was not, I was not conscience, but aware, I could hear buzzing noises and almost voices. I could feel a sun blister on my lip trying to heal, I could feel my teeth touching each other and in my mind could see them illuminating as they touched. I don't know how long this asleep/awareness lasted but I drifted in and out, all the while feeling sexually aroused here and there. Fractal images danced in my head, strange images, strange noises.
It was quite interesting.
Sorry so long, a lot happened!!
We normally don't ever go out in to public while using acid, but decided that we should be fine just walking down the strip watching all the lights and enjoying the music. So once we felt out how hard we were tripping, we decided that we would head out. I went into a panic, and had caught a glance in the mirror of myself. I decided for some strange reason that I was going to try to put some makeup on, I am not a superficial person and rarely wear makeup nor care about what I am wearing. I tried for about five minutes to apply the makeup and decided it just wasn't going to happen. So I went to my suitcase and tried to find something to wear. I felt completely inadequate with everything I tried on. I started to break down, and ended up in the fetal position on the bed with my husband trying to calm me down. I pulled myself out of my hole and just put something on, we got ready to leave, I could hear people outside of the door, and began to panic again. So i decided that a few shots of alcohol might calm my nerves. So I took two shots and tried to gain my composure.
Things were beginning to move a lot. We got down stairs to the lobby and I felt a little better, we walked outside and started to walk towards the busy part of the strip with the big casinos. It was so hot, and one of the first things we saw was on old homeless man with crutches on the street, it broke my heart and I didn't know what to do. I wanted to help but didn't know how, I thought about as we walked down the street, and I remember a friend of ours that we had whom burned all his bridges and tore his life a part using drugs, and I remember that no matter how many times we tried to help him, it was useless until he picked himself up, took responsibility for his life and helped himself. There was nothing I could do to help until he helped himself. That made me feel a little better about the homeless people we saw along the way. But it still broke my heart.
The first casino we went to was treasure island, it was busy, but I handled it ok, as I had been in before and my memory took me where I needed to go. We ended up coming out of doors and there were so many people, it was just about time for a show. So we went back in and went around the other way, we had wanted to make it to the venetian because I thought the scenery was neat. So we got out of treasure island and headed on. The buildings were so incredibly large and intimidating. Everything was huge!
I don't remember feeling much of a body high, but was stuck in my head. We came to an intersection, and two guys broke out into a fight! (Why do strange things always happen when i'm tripping?!
) We headed on, and I started to people watch. The noises got louder there were more and more people. My brain was really having a hard time processing it all. I decided I wanted a frozen drink, so we found a small shop and started to go in, but as I was looking at the menu the words started to disappear and I couldn't read anything. I felt panic again, so decided it wasn't worth it. Kept walking and I was starting to get frustrated with the lack of control I had over where I was going. There were so many moving sidewalks, escalators, and sky bridges, so instead of taking these escalators I opted to take stairs when I could, I became proud of my legs and human body and wanted to use it for what it was meant to be used for. At this point I felt like something in mind had been awakened, a part of me that was not human, and I could hear it in my head, and we started talking about all the people there, just mindless zombies being distracted with everything going on, no one had life in their eyes. They were all "lifeless". We started talking about the nonsense of Vegas and how consumer driven it was and I was filled with disgust. We made it to the venetian and want to go down on the second level were there was music and lights outside, we were on the second level sky bridge entrance and I thought it should be easy to get to, however I have never been in the venetian and didn't think about the unfamiliarity of it. We go into the doors and I immediately feel lost and confused, I couldn't see the sky and had no clue what direction was which. I can't see any signs and have no idea where to go, I start to panic. I can't breathe and have no clue how I am going to get out of this huge place. We go downstairs because I knew that's what level I wanted to be on to get where I wanted to go. But it made it even worse, my heart was pounding, I could hardly see. I couldn't see an escape and I was getting scared. I remembered a mantra I like to use when ever a bad trip comes on " Be still and know that I am god, be still and know that I am, be still and know, be still, be" I tried repeating it in my head as I saw a set of stairs and ran up them to try to get out. My mantra was not working, I just wanted out. We finally make it out of the building and it looks like we are stuck on a balcony and the only way off it back inside. I knew I couldn't do it, I refused. So I stood at the edge of the balcony looking over the edge down at all going on, I was breathing heavy. I closed my eyes trying to relax. Once I gained control of my breathing I looked around to try and find a way down and out, every where I looked seemed like we were stuck. I thought that I found a way out so we started to walk, and thank the universe that it was the way out. I spotted a gelato shop and headed that way, but panic set in again when I thought about ordering. I could hear people talking, but they weren't speaking any language I have ever heard before. It freaked me out more, I couldn't understand anything. So we decided to start walking back the room. I couldn't handle it anymore.
On the way back I still felt stuck in my head. Me along with the other being in my head thought what in the world is this huge city of distraction doing out in the middle of nowhere? What are "they" trying to hide people from? ( I am a little bit into aliens and conspiracy theories 8)) The thought left our mind, and the being in my head, stated I gotta hand it to em, being able to process that all the time, sober human brains!
I began to feel proud again and we talked about how I need to be proud of who and what I am. I felt better about myself.
The closer we got to our room the better I felt, the calmer things were. My hubby and I talked about a few things here in there but I was still stuck in my head with the being. On the way back I wanted some food, the being in my head insisted we have healthy food from our mother earth, so I bought some grapes. They were delicious, we discussed how less is more and how I need to simplify more, in all walks of life from over consumerism to food, I had fractal images in my head of grape veins.
We got our hotel and got some food as I was starving! Pizza never tasted so good! We got to our room and the good euphoric part of the acid took over. YAY! I laid on the bed in silence, with my eyes closed and meditated. I noticed how different positions I laid in flowed different energies through my body, I put the bottoms of my feet together and felt energies flow through my body. Then I put my palms together and images of Buddha and the Hindu god Rama came into my head, then I put my arms across my chest like Egyptian mummies. I held myself like that and the being was talking about accepting all the gods and religions, said even Christ and the bible which would be the hardest for me to swallow. I saw a tree and was looking at it from the roots up, and the dirt started to crumble away and this bright brilliant light shown through and I saw this ball with spikes of prism light, bright and brilliant and beautiful and I felt peace, euphoria and oneness unlike I ever have before. It felt clean and pure. I woke up and the being was gone.
The rest of the night was pretty normal for acid, crazy visuals which I haven't had in a while, amazing sex with my hubby, and the jacuzzi tub was wonderful. I re-dosed about two hours after, not sure if it did much. As usual was hard to fall asleep, I felt as though at times, my body was asleep, but my minds eye was not, I was not conscience, but aware, I could hear buzzing noises and almost voices. I could feel a sun blister on my lip trying to heal, I could feel my teeth touching each other and in my mind could see them illuminating as they touched. I don't know how long this asleep/awareness lasted but I drifted in and out, all the while feeling sexually aroused here and there. Fractal images danced in my head, strange images, strange noises.
It was quite interesting.
Sorry so long, a lot happened!!
